Well I am starting New.. Yep I am a lier I know. I have had another blog on here and I said I was done with this site forever but I jsut cant go away from it. There are to many people I see as close to me to just say heck with it, and I need the plave to vent... well that will be it for now

~later

Do this?  It's not terribly difficult [ you just respond with your name. ]

I'll get back to it once I get back home tonight.

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be..
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your blog.

Not many people on here know my other Name and no it is is not hard to firgure out so I progably wont get that many people on this thing.... man I just dont know what I am thinking anymore. I become close to people on here and then I screw it up... Yep just me being the Fuck up that I am basically... well ttyal.

Ok Well my life has been having its ups and down and yeah kind of a t an even low righth now so it is not that bad. I will get that one friends thing below donw in my next blog. ttyal k. and Havea  great one.

Josh

Theme Song to Smallville

7:00 pm.. When Smallville Starts here

Funny

Talking about Lana lol (Damn she is Hot lol)

A Monkey, because Monkey rule man lol

What gave your confidence. You just seem to have a lot. Saying whats on your mind and just doing what you want not scared of what other thinks. It just is cool.

KT

Dashborad Cofessionals: Ender Will Save Us All. (Not all of this but parts of it work. I just dont know what to put for this KT. I have bee looking for a good song for this since you put your name down in the reply and I still dont think this one works really. I will probably change this later to another song actually lol)

5:00AM at the moment. Because that is when the Sun Rises… probably not you but the sun does and it makes me think of you

Amazing

I dont think I can pick one. I have cherished every talk we have ever had.

I Siberian Tiger. One of the most beautiful this on this earth and calm most of the time, but under that enterer is a raging animal.

Where do you find you strength? I just don’t know how you and other like you are able to keep going on and over all find the good parts of life even in its darkest of moments.

Ok So I met this one girl Megan and she is really cool and I like to spend time with her but I dont relly want to be in a relationship. I just want some nice friendly time with some one. I want to date around even though I am not doing much of it. O shit.... I just had this up when she came by and I went to go help a custamoer. I dont know if she read it.. I hope not because readin that little bit with out anything else has to look and feel bad. ok now on to where I was. I miss spending time with a female. I like to cuddle so much. One reason my friend Kayla si so cool. We are great friends and we cuddle for the fun of it., Yeah I think at first she thought is was going on to more but I made some little coment and she was like o ok this is just us as friends cuddling and it was all good.  I dont her during our first date that I was not going to rush into a relationship at all because I have had sxuch ba dluck with doing that. Not gettting to know this person and then just kind of being stuck in the relationship. Well I told her this stuff but still later that night she was like so we going to be together now and other junk. I did not say yes or no so I think she took it as a yes. Damn it. I dotn want to hurt this girl becaus eI do like her I just dont htink I should be in a relationship at this point in my life with how I acted. I get scared way to easly when it comes to feelings and stuff.  There are just so many unknowns for my life right now I mean I know that for the next two month and three months after that what I am dsoing but after that it is all up in the air and I dont want some one to getr attached to me in two months and then have me go for about 2 years. Just does not seem right. There are jsut so many reason I have to stay singal. I just dont want to hurt her and that is one reason I dont want to get in a relationship. I think I will forever be alone because now all I ever do is get scared that I will Hurt her or get hurt myself, andI know when it comes down to it I would rather her get hurt now then either of us get hurt later on.  I dont know.. I will have to tlak to her soon and yeah I just took out a lot because it is not needed to be said on here and what not. Sorry I know I hate when people do that too but yeah.. I guess I may as well get soem work donw here.

~Laer

I work 10-4 then 8-9. The last hour I picked up from the guy after me and it is the hour that is messing my day over. I have two grad parties to go to. One 4-8 the other 4-9.  I have to get my Thank You letters done bye tomorrow, and I wanted to go to a part tonight.... this sucks.... I dont knwo if I will even end up going to that first party.... I mean she is my friend but I just have so much to do... it sucks knowing that work has to come before play.... I have to still write out like 23 of the Thank You letters and then I need to address them.... there are like 45 to 50 something of them... damn it.... There goes my night basically.... If it was not for that last stupid hour that I picked up I woudl be all good... damn me for being nice and taking it.. Well I guess I may as well restock the shelfs to do somehting... ttyal

Ok so as always my parents give me the image that they are going to be mad but then they turn out to be like whatever to whatever it is that I had to talk to them about. It is just wierd.... They did not really care at all that I had that party... They did the usually did anyhting get borke, who was here, blah blah blah blah blah..... and that was it.. So yeah... turned out to be a crappy update but whatever lol...

~later

ok I am going to talk about the three me's that are in an argument at the moment. One of them likes a girl on here, another one likes a girl that is here about 10 min away, and the last just wants to run around and have fun and not be wiht anyone and just hang out wiht a lot of females to figure out more what I like and so I dont feel like I am missing something by being with one girl... Last one is very complicates.... Ok for the girl on here I do love and there is no doubt of this but she is not here and that is something I want.... Ok for the one Here... She is very cool and I do like her a lot but then again like always even when I had a gf I get away from them and am like ok whatever and have a mentality of a singal guy. That is not good because I dont want to hurt her. That is another reason I am frekaed about relationships right now... I dont want to end up hurting someone else or gettign hurt myself. I dont want to get tied down to some one when I am going in less then two months and going to iraq some time after that. Yeah I want to have a lot of friends so they write me while over there but I dont want a gf back here scared I may die or losing out on true love with some one just because she was waiting for me thinking I may be the one and then get back and we dont work out and then she may have missed that one guy... I just dont want that. I love to cuddle and watch movies with girl and just sit there and talk to them... just spending time with them in general. I mean yeah I like to spend time wiht by buddies too but there is just something more emotional about spending time with a girl even if you are just friends and that is it and you just playing games or something... I dont know..I am goign to hit the sack..

~later

.I am sucha looker... and I flirt all the time.. and I cant go wiht that look and dont touch thing because yaeah.. Touching is what make things fun... Damn it... to many college girls back in town damn.... lol Yeah all girls should just not get messed up with guys like me... Just to messed in the head... not knowing what I want at all... I get females feelings and then I push them away to go and spend time with another chick.... I am a low life that is for sure.... Nice guy but still an ass.... I dont know... just so lost in my head about what I want anymore.... so for now just going day by day and willhave fun with whatever happens and wont let stuff bug me.. and I wanr everyone that I am an ass I tell them right off the bat so you cant get mad at me when I turn out to be a nice guy and an ass at the same time ok people lol

~later

Ok I create my own drama in my head you know that lol... like I complain about being single but then when I can jsut sday ok where dating and have a gf that is very cool I dont and then I complain about that and now I am complaining aboutme complaining.... Yeah if that is not fucked up I dont knwo what is lol... See that is one reason I dont think females should get mixed up wiht me... I just am to off in the head lol.... I mean I see it but then I am... I dont know lol... I just find myself funny..I dont have anyone giving me dramam to deal wiht and think about so I create my own... I dotn know....... THi ssucks Jeff is not here... I have no one to bum wiht now... He really was the only guy I hanged out with.... I mean he had a large amount of friends and always knew where the parties where and we could just sit there and play games all night and not say anyhting and we would be all good... damn this sucks not having some one to bum wiht lol.... but I will go over there a couple of times this summer... Have top go on a Sunday.. They have Mondays off so you can guess it... the get smashed on Sunday.... I wont get smashed but it is always fun to bum wiht people who are gettting smashed lol... well Have to sell some stuff so yeah...

~Later

Damn it I hate being Sick... I did not sleep worth shit last night either... Well I get to go cut grass while sick.. and then go to work while sick.. Yeah I know I am just a winer..

~later

Ok so Yesterday while at work some girl came by gave me this poke in my side and kept walking. I was selling something at the time so I could not just stop that and talk to her and she was on the phone too... it is now just bugging me crazy and I hope she comes in the mall some time again when I am here so I can figure it out.... I mean I only saw her look back for a split sec and I know I recognized her face because DAMN!!! She is a cuty and she was wearing a business suet skirt get up which is so damn hot to me...She has shorter hair blond with some red in it I think...  damn it I want to know who it was... lol well that is it for now.. ttyal

O yeah I am starting to feel better.. still feel like crap but better then before.... just thought I would let you all know..

~later

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I dont care what anyone says this is cool. I got the same color as the BMF od Star Wars... Yeah you will have to be a geek to get that lol

I feel as though I have not tlaked to anyone on here or update at all and have not look at any blogs.. it is really wierd... I feel as though I am so far behind in all of your lifes... it is strange.... so yeah.. I dont know.. starting to get pretty healthy now.. still have a cough and sniffled but nothing to bad.... I went and saw Mr. & Mrs. Smith last night and that was really cool... Can go wrong with AJ.. Damn that girl is hot and so amazing as a person in general.. she does so much good in the world... not just as a star but as a person.. yeah... I am confused about what I want when it comes to females.. wont say anymore on that because I dont know what to say... remember confused...

.Yeah just saw a bunch of my friends from Mayo and Kayla was with them... Damn me... Ok I was hanging out with ehr a while back during the school here and we could have started dateing but I did not want to take the chance because I did nto want to screw up the friendship... now when I look back I regret not going for it... It is true what they say... You dont regret what you do in the past as much as you regret the things you did not do..... well that really is not what they say bnut I think that is very true.... I dont know... I msged her and I hope she comes back here to talk to me about maybe going to see a movie or something... then I feel bad because ther is also Megan here that likes me and I do like her and all just I can see us going a long time at all. I mean she is a lot of fun and I like her just not in a long term gf way.. damn it I just feel like scum because I know she feels that way about me... I remind her that we are n ot in a relationship but the only difference in it would us saying we are and we are not.. other wise we act as though we are.. I dont know...  I just got myself in a down mood so I will write more some other time

~later

Man I feel as though I have not been on here forever. I had drill this weekend so that is one reason I have not been on. Drill sucked and it was a waste of money. I am not a PFC instead of a PV2 which mean like .60cents an hour in pay I think so that is cool. I am sorry for not getting ahold of some of you shortly after I got back. I had several msges on my phone but never got back to any of them because I am always so blah after drill weekend. It always takes me two days to recover. Well one and a half really. The rest of Sunday and the Monday after it.  Ummmm.... Nt much else going on.. I wont be going to iraq quite as soon as I thought/hoped. They are going in Sept. While I will still be finishing up my training so yeah that part bies in a way. I think this one Recruter friend I have figured out why I kindof want to go to Iraq. It is because at this moment my future is a complete unknown, and it would be nice to say yes for this 18 months I will be doing this and know somehting for sure. Not one thing rather then AIT is a sure thing in my life right now. Well that is it for now I guess. O and I think I may have given up trying to get a date with Lauren. I mean I know she has time after she workis to go out and watch a movie or someting but she never really seem like she want to hang with me so I may as well say F-it and put another check to the no date side of my record... that side is very very large lol....I just know that some of my friends have seen her out hanging with friends after she works when she seems to give me the image that she does not like to do much after she gets off from work or something..I dont know... I may try one more time but not sure.... actually I know I will just because I am to damn hard headed to get the hint and give up lol... damn I am a strange one lol... well know I really am going and will probably make another entry like in 20 min becaus eI am at work so bye for now

~later

So yeah I just got a bunch of video game..ok so it was only three... but yeah I got PofP warrior within, Red Faction 2, and Full Spectrom Warrior. The all kick ass... well not sure about the Red one yet but the other two are amazing. I just want to hide myself away in my room and play then tell I have beat them all and have become a master of them... Vgames kick ass and I cant wait to start making them. They are not childish at all. They are for people with open minds, that like to really get away from our real world and do some stuff that can be done. They are so much fun. There are some of us who just grow a greater passion for them that is all. Ok off from and a little add on. I get to go see Batman Begins in the Omni Theater up in the twin cities. It is going to be so fuxcking awsome. I cant wait. It is costig me twice as much for tickets but I am getting twice the screen so that makes sense lol.. damn I cant wait for thursaday lol well tty in a while

~later

ok some repkues jsut bug me at times, and if they do yes I will just through them out. Ok Yeah I do like females but I am not like a fucking yound teen thinking everyone of them is hot and that I must date them and want to do them. Tell you the truth there are very few females I want to do.Yes there are several that I want to spend time with and get to know better but that is it. Does no one believe in dating around to see what is out there and what you want to find. Yeah it may seem like I am going in fifty was but I am not.. I am going in about 7 I think lol... I just want to date aroujnd right now and see whats out there. I think my mind set is healthy I am open with these females to make sure I do not lead them on and I try to make sure no one gets hurt. Yes I know I am not always able to do this but i do try. It just seems like a healthy thing to go out and try to meet many people to see what your looking for so you dont get into something and have to end it after a couple of months because the girl is not want you want. Because at this point I dont know what I want. Some times I want a wild girl, some times I want a down to earth one, some times I want some one with strongh religion. I have no clue at this point and that is why I am jsut dating around and NOT sleeping with anyone.... well I could go on and on but I wont for now... I am at work so I may write another entry....

~later

Yeah my dog may have to be killed. He got a possum in his cage and being the dog he is he kicked and bit its ass to death. At first when my mom saw she was like Yay way to go tippy and then she was like o fuck those things have rabies so yeah... I have to keep him pinned up for 10 days and if he start to show aggression I have to put him down... this sucks big time. I dont know if I have said on this blog or my other one but this dog means so much to me. When ever I have been down or anything I can just go out with him and run around the yard. Play catch with him and just bum and pet him and talk to him and he ont talk back or anything and he will sit there and listen... well that is if dogs understand us.. I think they understand body language which is why they will stick close to there owners when they are down. God damn it he better not have them.... I mean part of me knows yes he is a dog and shit happens.but he just means so much to me... god I hope he does not... so yeah if you pray add a quick bit for my dog... I know that may sound wierd to some people but this dog really does mean as much as a human to me.... bye

Yeah I can really tell that i have stopped rereading my entries.... my spelling is back to what it was when I started my first blog... but whatever lol. O another thing about the girl thing is I have a reason to be going insane. I work at the mall where a ton of females go and I am singal.... SOme days I think I may go blind lol... well have a great night you all

~later

Ok this is go to probably end up being a rant and may piss people off a little bit but whatever lol. Ok on some one else’s blog a made the comment that I look for a good personality in females and I got the normal comment from a female and she said "Yeah but you never say, Wow look at that personality I want to get a date with that" or something like that. I always find this funny because I see mostly females making this comment but not males. I mean come on it is not like you females dont notice the body first when it comes to guys too. Everyone does because that is nature. As an animal, which human still are, we look for the best physical mate. it is are intelligence that makes it so complicated. As animals we want to find the best physical mate so that our offspring is as good as it can be, It is just the way the world works, but there is that advanced brain of ours that makes it hard. We take in so many factors. We look at how they act around different people, what the like to do, what music the listen to, what kind of humor to the have and like,... this list goes on and on and on. (O yeah this is not a dis on girl because that first part may make it seem like that is what this was doing, but it is a general statement/rant) There is also pheromones that effect us to. Everyone has there own sent that the omit and some people pick up on this sent and they like it and other are not effected by it. There are actually some perfumes out there that they put more of these smells in it so you are to attract more people or something.... well I am going to stop this now because this is going no where and I am bored with it.. I thought I would make a really long entry but this is must really boring now so yeah... I may write more if my interest picks up in it again lol..
~later

Ok this is go to probably end up being a rant and may piss people off a little bit but whatever lol. Ok on some one else’s blog a made the comment that I look for a good personality in females and I got the normal comment from a female and she said "Yeah but you never say, Wow look at that personality I want to get a date with that" or something like that. I always find this funny because I see mostly females making this comment but not males. I mean come on it is not like you females dont notice the body first when it comes to guys too. Everyone does because that is nature. As an animal, which human still are, we look for the best physical mate. it is are intelligence that makes it so complicated. As animals we want to find the best physical mate so that our offspring is as good as it can be, It is just the way the world works, but there is that advanced brain of ours that makes it hard. We take in so many factors. We look at how they act around different people, what the like to do, what music the listen to, what kind of humor to the have and like,... this list goes on and on and on. (O yeah this is not a dis on girl because that first part may make it seem like that is what this was doing, but it is a general statement/rant) There is also pheromones that effect us to. Everyone has there own sent that the omit and some people pick up on this sent and they like it and other are not effected by it. There are actually some perfumes out there that they put more of these smells in it so you are to attract more people or something.... well I am going to stop this now because this is going no where and I am bored with it.. I thought I would make a really long entry but this is must really boring now so yeah... I may write more if my interest picks up in it again lol..
~later

Well Kristi Is headed back south. Damn I am going to miss her. I am not going to lose contact with her this time though. I have her Number now and her address for the moment (that part changes like every couple months it seems lol). Yeah this girl really is something. I mean I dont know what it its about her. I have known her forever and I have had little crushes on her but the way I feel now is completly different. I have not felt this way since the start of my relationship with Vern. I mean for once and a long time it trully is jsut the person that attravts me. Yes she is pretty but that is not what attracts me to her now. It is really hard to explane this lol.. I dont know... She goes to Iraq in Sept. Which makes me mad because I wish I was going there even more now. It would be so cool if we got lucky enough to be at the same base over there. I will probably send her care pacages and what not. I think this is the most we have been open about our feelings to each other.. or my feelings for her. We never really did talka bout how she feels about me but like me it is obvouse she does like me. Yeah she found it funny that my first crush on her was around 12 or somehting. Yeah I also told her a story of one time when we met up at the lib. Well actually I was there and she just happen to be there too. Well me being her best friends little brother she said Hi and what not and siad she would give me a lift home. Well we get in her car and she had to getr something or rearrange her back seat so she  just lead over between the two front ones to do it. Well her but was like right there and I basically know that was the first time I checked her out. It is really funny to think back on it now and we both had a good laugh about it lol. It is just cool to be able to just sit with her and  talk for a lot of this time she was here. Metting her sister and her sister kids was cool too. Her one, Spike, is 11 and is almost as tall as me. He is going to be one big guy. The other one, Alex, is just three months amd is just a cuty... Yeah well that is enough ranting... O yeah I can tell you right now that even though I really like Kristi and would date her in a sec and blah blah blah blah blah (blah is either stuff I just dont want to say to the public or just stuff not interesting) I will still go and hang out with other females and what not. Most of them Ijsut see as friends and they see me that way so it is not biggy... yeah well I am going to call it a night

~later

Wow I had a dream the other day... more of a nightmare... I saw my Ex gf at some place.. dont knwo where it was or anythign just the all of a sudden she walked out of this biulding I was sitting near and she did see me which I was like damn it about. Then it gets a little fuzzy (or I am jsut to lazzy to write it all) and it end with her beiung all I cant stand you as a person and dont need you or anyone and she went of into this croud... then it was me going to find her to bitch her out... not many people I would actually chase down to bitch at but yeah she would be one for sure...

I feel bad everytime I get online now because I think damn I have not been on in a while and I dont know what is going on in other peoples lives or what not... wow that does not read right but whatever..... I just dont look at everyones blog every day like I use too. I use to always be on this things. I could spend a whole day just blogging and reading random ones... but I dont anmore and I feel as though I am doing something wrong by not... I am sorry for those that I dont read as often anymore.

Ok now on to what been going on in my life. NOTHING!!! that is what has been going on. it really sucks to. I feel as thought I dont have any one to hang out with. I know I do but with out my best bud here it is just wierd. I have a month intell I go to AIT which is cool and I am looking forward to that. Still a No for Iraq in Oct but still have a small chance to tern to a yes still... I realy want to go over there... but yeah... I am going to go play diablo 2 now because there is not much else to do here at work... tttyl... (dang my job rules lol)

Think my titles may jsut be quotes from now on lol.... Ok Every one should smile more. Just a little thing I am doing mroe now. No reason to smile just doing it because it really does lighten up the day. I see so many people walking around with frowns at the mall and all I do is give them a not with a smile and they give one back and the smile they put on there face stays there for bit.... may not be long but still a bit and tyhat smile might get some one else to smile and so on and on tell the whole world starts to smile more. Just happy little thinking. :-) Well hope you all have a great god and god love ya

~Later

lol us males are funny. Some shorter girl with a small frame but large breast walked by a little while ago and it was so funny lol. Two guys in there low 20s eyed her up from the front and glanced back and made little commment to each other and then she went into a store right near my stand and walked by some older guy in his late 30s I think anbd this is were I really got a laugh. This guy had been standing there for a while waiting for his wife and kid but as this girl walked by him his eyes never left her. He kind of moved a little bit to "see where his family was at" in the store as he also looked at this girl as she walked around into the store. He then came back out of the store and looked through the store window at this girl as she shopped near it.... We males are funny lol... I think more females will find this funny then males but I dont care. Males are horn dogs. It does not matter how old we get a big pair of breast seem to catch our eyes even if we dont give a toot to how big the really are.... I mean some of us are legs, buts, hair, eyes, or what not guys.... Me I got to have an all around girl and I mean as in what she gots works for her body not that it all has to be tops or something... well  yeah lmao.. she just walked by and a coupl;e more guys followed her with there eyes as she went by lmao... and she is not that good looking lol.. sorry I find this stuff so funny and it can be girls doing it to guys too... I just find us humans in general funny.... well I have some work to do so ttyal lol... God loves ya no matter what name you call or even if you dont believe him/her.

~later :-) (Remember to smile)

Yeha I like this quote title thing I am finding ones that are just cool form good songs lol. Well this one really fits because I dont know what has hit me today but I havegone forward by going way back lol. I am going to get happy again. I was happy and listened to good upbeat music would good lyrics and that is what I have been doing today and it has been so much fun. I am going to get my religion back to.,... or at least what it is back to me lol. SO yeah I am going back just far enough back that I am going forward... lol yeah that makes no sense but who cares lol. :-)

~Later and remember to smile people :-)

LOL I AM I A GREAT MOOD LOL. I am on a natural happy High and I love it. I hope I dont go back down again. I dont think I will because I wont let myself lol. Dont know where this has gome from but yeah ttyal. :-)

~Later

(Hey Amanda I am trying your sex in the tag idea you talked about a long time ago... lets see if it help out or not lol)

Just a snip of sadness back in me. I really wish I could go back in time and take the bullet/bullets that killed some one... I dont even know they guy but he seems to have been a great guy and effect a lot of people.. truthfully I can think of several people like him I wish I could go back anbd time and either stop there deaths... but that is life. People die that shouldn't and people who should die dont... yeah that sound mean but it is true. Well tha is it for now I am going to go read more and try to finish my book today.

~later and remember to keep smiling :-)

Yeah My best friend Jeff was in town last night and today, but I have to work today so yeah... But we hang out most of last night  and it was so much fun lol. As Always I get around him and I nd up dranking. I did not have much though. I had 1 beer and one shot of B151 proof and that was at 9 and I did not drive tell about one or so, so I was all good bye that time.I really did not get messed up from it or anything which I dont mind, just had it for the heck of it. Still dont get my high tolerance to dranking, but I wont complain lol.

ok sorry about having sex in my tag and not getting to the sex part of my last blog. I had more to right but my comp goofed and posted it and wsould not let me edit it and yeah I now dont even remember what I was going to write about so I will not even try to figure it out. SO my day has really sucked. I went with my mom this morning to put down our oldest dog Garth. I mean it was the right thing to do but we still both cried. Yeah that is right I cried and I dont care who knows it. I am sucha dog person. SO yeah that kind of drained me and my mom of energy and we were both tired then I still am but yeah anyways. We went to my moms old house where she grew up because it burned down last night. We heard it over the scanner my dad has. Yeah or guess is that there a meth lab in it because it would be perfect place big old empty house in the middle of no where. So yeah that was wierd looking at the old place because my grandpa lived there most of my child hood and not that we went there much but still. Yeah so after that we went home and ate and I played Xbox for a bit. I then was gettign ready for work and had to go feed my dog. He neded some so I got in my Jimmy qand went to the co-op right by our house where my dad works to get some yeah my dad notived my tire was really low so yeah I knew there was a whole some where in it. Well we filled it up there so we did not wreck it any more and I could not here it there because it was noise but when I got home I could here the hiss with out even bending down to the tire. So yeah I am using my moms Jimmy and I over all just in a crappy mood but yeah life will go on. I Just hope my tire stays up enough so I dont have to go change and put on my spare and I can just get it fixed with out dealing with that... I am just being lazy or what not but yeah I just am having a bad day and work is at least keeping my mind off of it or at least it is when I am doig work on not just sitting here.. well that is it for now and Remember to keep a smile on.

~later

Well I am off to Wisc. to take a week of bumming. Not like I dont do it here but it is nice to go to other places to lol. I will give you a better update when I get back. Which will be only two weeks before I go off to AIT for three months.  I cant wait :-).... So Yeah I hope you all have fundoing whatever and remember to smile :-)

~Later

ok so I anm still in WI and this lap top is really wierd to type on so yeah. I will probably only get one more entry in before I go to AIT in Fort Benning GA.  I will miss you all very much. You would be surprised how many of you really have touched my heart. I think KT is pobably the first that comes to my mind but she is not the only. I will ttyal and rather then the next one tty all when I get back... not sure who I will be or when that is but I will miss ya. If you want to write me or me to write you just send me your address to greenshirts@aol.com .

~Later and remember to smile :-)

Well I just got back yesturday froim AIT and am now a fully trained solder of the US Army. It is a very cool thing and big deal for me. I really want to sit here and write for hours on end but I cant because I have a friend that is stuck at my house because of rain and need some sleep and the only good couch to sleep on is back by the computer soi yeah dont really work for me to sit here. Wow was that ever a run on sentance lol. Well I will probably have a good amount of time tomorrow so I will write more and try to catch up with everyone and stuff. I have missed you all so much and it is great to be back.

~Later and remeber to smile :-)

It is funny. I have alot going on in my head yet I doint want to write it were you all can see it because I dont want to bother you all with it.. kind of funny I dont want to write in my journal because of others though this site is made up for you can write openly and get help on your thoughts.... but whatever I am going to go write a private one...

Well a while back I had a crush on this one chick named Jenny from a different school. Well little did I know this other guy I know and am friends with now had a crush on her too. Well he won that one and actually that is how I became friends with him. Well I figured out last night that we are both going for the same girl again. Yeah the girl I wrote about below. By what I saw last night at a party after homecoming (Yeah I went to homecoming even though I graduarted, I have friends there still ya know lol) they seem p[retty close too. There was a short bit wheree it was just me and her and she was like this is really complicasted and she ust cant figure out what she wants. This was before the party. Well at that point I knew it was him since he was her date for the night. I was hoping it was jsut as good friends but I think it is because there could be something there too. Well even though I think I really could compete with him for this girl I think I may just step back this time and not. I mean it really sucks since this is the first girl I have really liked in a long time. Like when I started dating my last g it was just something I did... whihc is probably why it did not last. See last year I was going to ask her out on dates but she was taken and dang.... this just bites but it is better if I just step back. He is a great guy, they have a lot in commen, they see each other all the time since they both do speech and they both go into the plays and yeah.. it will just be easier for her if I just step back out of the picture and go back to being just a friend... I dont get why I do this when I like some one.. I always do it... I have one female friend that said that this is the main reason I am single. I am just to nice of a guy. SO yeah I dont know... I will talk to Anthoiny today and see how he feels about her and what not. If he wants to try and date her I will say go for it and I wish him luck.... :-/

~keep SMiling and God bless

WellI have it ande I am very happy with how it turned out. I will get some pictures of it up when
I get home. I am at work now. YAY WORK!!!! I have missed it so lol. Later

~keep smiling and God Bless

MALL=JAIL BAIT! Plane and simple that is the truth. All I see are little sluts... it is so sick!! I need to get out of this town. It is full of teeny Boppers and that is it. Most of the people my age have exscaped this area of the earth and are damn lucky to do so. Hopefully I will be out of here by next fall. Wont people to do it tell then and probably will go to a college with dorms so that is an easy way out. After spending some time down at Luther I think it would be a lot of fun to do that. I know I would probably actually study a lot too. Which is funny because I dont do that much now lol. I think I would because I would be on my own and no buddy would be telling me I had to. There have been many times I have gone to do chorse and work around my house but then my mother tells me to do them so I dont do it. Yeah I still do that whole little rebal thing. I probably always will. Well Yeah I know this really does not have to do with Jail Bait as my title says but o well I said a little bit on it. Yeah just dont like being here much at all. I dont like all the wine I have been serving latley but it happens I guess. I just am not a happy person right now. Well actually right now I am doing good because I am at work and I love work. It has been very busy latly too so that is a big up. Ok random thought but I have noticed that while at work I seem to type really fast and quite well. As in I dont look at the key board and look at the screen or around and make sure no one is being unattended at my stand. One thing I have figured ot that the best way to make sales is to ask if people need help. Even if the dont it seems to work to give them a little extra push to buy something. I dont know. Well I am going to take a break for a while maybe I will write more later who knows with me..LAter

~Keep MSiling and God Bless

Ok I really dont get this and do not agree wiht it at all but today it happend again. I was told I look like Kenny Chesney. I look nothing like this guy. Yeah I probably do have my shirt off as much as him but that is not the point here because I was at work wiht a shirt and hat on and yeah some girl cam to pick up her phone and she was liek wow you look a lot like him. This is not the first time this has happend to me and I just dont get it. I mean it is a compliment so I wont comlain to much but still it does not add up... well that is all that is new to me so later

~Keep SMiling and God Bless

Ok I really dont get this and do not agree wiht it at all but today it happend again. I was told I look like Kenny Chesney. I look nothing like this guy. Yeah I probably do have my shirt off as much as him but that is not the point here because I was at work wiht a shirt and hat on and yeah some girl cam to pick up her phone and she was liek wow you look a lot like him. This is not the first time this has happend to me and I just dont get it. I mean it is a compliment so I wont comlain to much but still it does not add up... well that is all that is new to me so later

~Keep SMiling and God Bless

Ok I almost forgot to write this some how. Actually I keep telling myself to but never get to it. Well I wetn and seen Jarhead last night because it finally opened. Well it was amazing!. I love war movies and yeah they did a great job on this one. It shows a lot of truth and that is one thing they were aiming for. Well I think everyone should go see this movie and thats that. So Later

~keep SMiling and God Bless

I have a ghost! I am not joking I havce had one following me around for a while... I have this picture I took that caught its green eye. I have dark brown eyes so I know that the eye in the middle of this picture can not be mine... can you see it?.... I can not figur eout anyhting rather then I actually caught my ghost on camera... which is really cool... I mean you can see where my head is in this picture and even thought its cracked up becasue when I rear ended some one there is no way that it would turn the colors that green... maybe that was just the hulk in my coming out... lol well time to post myt tattoo pics... I love having facebook now lol it is going to be fun to post up all my pics

Ok Well I am finally getting my tatto up here.. sorry it to so long... Any ways this first pic is of the sweatshirt I took the idea from. I love this shirt and will be getting other things from it too

I chose not to keep the Bh because jsut did not want that for life. I mean true I am called Bob and my last name starts with an H... but just not cool enough for me to have it on my body for life... so I went with a Ying-Yang.. then while looking at some other tats I found this one that is now in my tattoo... well here ya go.. and its red around it because this is right after I got done with it...

Well I did something I should not have... well not that I should not have it just may give me some bad after effect..dont know yet... some of you probably can figure it all out by that little bit lol... anyways me and Jessie have gone on a couple more dates and it is going pretty good.... we will see what happens after this next week when we both start school again.. that will be a big factor if we go beyond dating into a relaitonship or not... man I just had the biggest bitch come to my stand... she did not like the way the face plate fit so she wanted a refund.. at first I was just going to say ok and not deal with any fuss but then she swore at me and I was like Miss you have no reason to start swearing so she said I will do whatever the fuck I want. So since she was so rude I then pointed out how I am not suppose to do refunds at all and was just going to be nice.. so yeah that got her more pissed and she was like I will take you guys to court (over $20 that is lame) and yeah I was like well I was fine being nice to you tell you started to be a bitch to me so I am going to honnor what we have posted and if you did bring us to court I will tell you know that we will win and you will just be losing more money by doing it... so yeah I was an ass switched the face back to the normal and then helped out another customer before I gave he rmoney back.. onlyt reason I gave it bvack is because I just did not want to deal with her bitching anymore.. I could care less if she took us to court I mean I get that threat every once and a while and when I point out all of the stuff we have on the reciet and have posted most of them give up and stop bothering with that threat.... O Yeah I got a ticket too.. I was not paying attention for once in who knows how long and ended up passing a cop doing 83 in a 60... yeah not one of my smartest moment lol... There goes $210 that would have put me in the safe for school.. o well.. O I am set up for school too.. Well I still need to buy my books but I am registerd for all of my classes... yeah back to the ticket again.. I am not really pisseda bout it it strangely.. I mean yeah it does suck about the whole money thing but then I look how I have not driven the speed limit since Sept when I got home and I say I have been pretty damn lucky and should not frown to much about just finially getting caught... only way I will be pissed is if they add some more onto it because of past tickets.. but I believe I am far enough away from them that they should not... It has almost been a year since my last one so yeah... anyways I am going to go get some water and sit in Journy's because I dont want to sit at my stand.. LAter

~Keep smiling and God Bless

Cant get her out of my mind.. I mean she was there before this but now she is there because I am thinkin damn some other guy is hitting on her at school and I cant even compete with that because yeah I am not in hs or even her school in general... damn it... but yeah rather tehn that it is going all good.. well guess I better do my hw do in 1 1/2 hours... Later

~Keep Smiling people... taking out the god part because yeah... people just dont get me on that subject so I just am not going to tlak about it ever again...

Jessie...Yeah I really like this girl and even though I have one girl throwing herself at me and several other that do whenever I am around them I could careless and just think about her.. I was at a party the other night and I could not even flirt back with girls because I was thinking about Jessie... I just am really worried that I have missed my chance with her... I mean yeah.. I Dotn know.. just always worried... My friend Alex is getting to be good friends with her but yeah he is not going to do anythign and plan on just being her firend but does say if it seems to be changing he will tell me bccause he is a good friend and it will be not on perpouse because he is not that low.. but yeah.. Man I just want to be with her in a relaionthsip... anyway ttyl..

Please dont give me the whole there are more girls out there talk becasue yeah I know and there are other girls that watn me but at this point I dont want any other girl really..

Yeah I got the whole we will be Friends crap basically.. so yeah missed my chance with her.. I was pissed but I just spent money on myself at a kick ass sale at Hot Topic so I am doing better now.. but yeah.. that is it.. so still singal and out looking.. but now it is more of looking for a relationship...I really dont want to get hurt but I do miss the whole caring about people thing...

Ok this new "friend: Alex I have is now with Jessie.. yeah I know he was stabbing me in the back since he started talking to her.. he is just that type of guy... but yeah.. that has me pissed... I mean I guess I should look at it as since her feelings changed for me so fast it probably would not have lasted long between us... bt yeah o well.. she will just be added to the list of girl who say they are my "friends" but never talk or hang out with me.... God I just love my life.... o wait that is a lie sorry I try no to do that...

Ok so most people who read my blogs know I am kind of a strange one.. to say how strange I get my favorit holiday of.. can you guess.. o wait you probably did get that by the title lol.. anyways people find it wierd that this day is my fav. one. Most people have like christmas and halloween.. andI love both.. halloween is my second.. some times first..anyways I was suppost to work that day but now I dont and that makes me happy lol.. I get to do all my normal stuff and I am very happy about that.. anywyas I still have not got laid and I am back into my I am ok with that mood.. well time to go to work so ttya Later

Bob

Ok so this is going to be a big update and some maybe repeate that you already knwo but o well deal wiht it.  First the general stuff. I am out of the Mall and working at wal-mart. I dont really liek it that much but it had ok pay for what I need and NO DRAMA!!! I am going to stay out of the drama in that store at all costs. people tell me I wont be able to but yeah I think I will. Ummm I had a girl pregant but she thanksfully lost it. I did nto tlak to her for a while but did last night. I dont know why she even talked ot me. If I was her I would hate me. I basically ditched this girl when she needed me most. So I am also trying out the whole one women man thing again. The girls name is rachael and she is so fucking awsome. I have not had sex with her yet and anyone who knows me knwos that sex is a big deal. To make this seem more of a big deal is that I turned her down for it. I had the chance and all but yeah I mean any longer and I probably would have broke and said yes but I did not and yeah. She knows I have been being a whore and I just want her to know that I really do care about her.I am scared about it too. she is gone right now tell teh 30th for some training with the Air Force and yeah I have no clue what is going to happen when she gets back. I may being g going to iraq on Oct 5th so if I get a yes for that I know that I will not even get a real chance with her and it will suck I will not tell ehr to wait or to leave. Will just say if she is still single when I get back I will def be coming back to her and if she is not that is ok and I will be happy that she is happy.. though I wont tell her that I will expect her to have another guy by the time I get back.. it would only be 6 months but still.... ok what else to say. O my car got broke into and now I no longer have a radio. yeah the fuckers took the face plate to the Radio. not the whole thing just the plate. I knwo they probably just tossed while walking that night but yeah it pisses me off. O I have a new tattoo as well. It is only half way dont at the moment though. I have spent $600 and 5 and a half hours on it and yeah still need to do about one more seasion of that to complete it. It is a barbarian from the Diablo 2 site... it is not on there anymore so yeah.. you can google search and find it though. It has two swords and yeah.. it just kicks ass... hmm what else to say. I just dont have much else going on really. O back to Racheal lol. I am scared for several reasons. Think I may have given her to much attetnion here for this first bit. I mean it has been a while since I really cared for a chick.. Monica was the last girl I really cared for like this and yeah that ended for ok reasons... not me basically lol... but yeah we kid of argue a bit.. whihc I am working on... she really likes to push me to try and get more with my life as well. I mean all I want is army and she is like well what happens if you get in your  30s and dont want to do that anymore and then what you have to fall back on.. which she has a point.. but I cant see myself wanting out. I love it way to much. Anyways I think it is time for me to get some sleep. Yeah I know I had many fragment thoughts and that is whole thing has really no pattern to it and many miss hits and miss spelled words but o well you will all live right lol. Anyways hope all you lifes are going great and I will ttya Later

~Bob

ok so I agreed to go and work at the walmart 45min away from my house because they need teh help and I wanted to stay away from mine for a little bit longer.. jsut dont like Managment at the moment. Anyways they want me to be there at 5am.. so I have to be at three and leave at 3:45 just to be compelty sure I get there all good. The part that sucks is I cant get to sleep. I went to bed early and have been going in and out of it all night.... this last time Iwas like Yeah I had to been sleeping for a while..nope just 11... well maybe this one hour of being up will reset me to sleep some more...ttyal..O yeah and I am kindof like giving up sex for a while.. true you cant really give soething up that your not having but o well lol.... just going to back off from the whole dating stuff for a while...

So today was good and bad all at the same time. It was good because I was not hung over... and that is about it. Now for the bad things. I found out and old friend of mine is dead. He took his life actually. It was a big shocker. Of course that always is, but I mean his life had finally went great for a change. He had a new job that he was so looking forward two, had a great girl that he was going to get married too, and was also one of the greatest dads I have seen. True he had a really bad stretch of life because he got addicted to some drugs but that dont make the man any less of a nice guy. It is.. yeah... dont know what to day. The Funeral is on Sunday so I am getting off early to go to it.  Ok other reason today was bad... well dont want to talk about one of them.. just going to forget about that one actually. I had to do return carts all day which sucked balls. I hate them because you have to walk all over the fucking place to get stuff put away and as soon as you think you have all the stuff from an area putt away you find one more thing for that area two lanes later. O yeah and I still dont know what the fuck I am feeling these days. I mean I feel like I am in high school again. By this I mean I am doing the same thing as I did there. I get up go to work(school) and then come home to kill some time before going to bed. Nothing is really all that to fun anymore. I had a little stretch there that I had some stuff to do and what not but yeah.. that is not even a chance anymore. I dont even know how I would retry or anything with that. Dont even get why it is stills tuck on my mind. Anyways yeah. That is about it. Just me with a lot of shit on my brain as normal and no one to talk to so I talk to myself and just let everyone read it. It is strange I am writing this for you but more of for me. I dont really talk to anyone anymore about my life. Well I do a little bit with my buddy Jeff but rather then him yeah I dont. He is actually the only guy I really hand out with these days.. Which again is like High school. Another thing that is funny is the name I just put up. the "I Live for Myself Alone". That dont fit me at all. I live for other people. I always have. I liive to make others happy not myself. I will give up pretty much anything to make one person happy. Even my own identity at times.
Not like I know who i am anymore. O yeah and my Knee if you did not know is really starting to give out. Like I were a Knee brace everyday now. I am trying to think when it started. I cant really remember if it was before or after I was kicked down that staircase. I think it was after actually.. who knows... o Yeah I have not talked to Sonie in a long time and I think that had been a wise choice. Any girl who can get you to spend money on her and gets you in a situation where you get your faced kicked as you fly downa staircase is just bad news... I have not talked to whit in a while either which sucks. That girls kicks all ass. She has had one hell of a life and yet still see a lot of good in it and shit. One tough cookie that I would not want to fuck with. Well guess I may as well comment on other people under my friends list as well. There is Scary. This is one of the coolest guys I have ever known. He is crazy and yet the coolest and nicest person you can ever meet.. unless you cross him of course. I have known him forever but sadly we have lost in touch after he moved away. Then there is Renee who I just saw like last week. Very cool chick, which is whys he one of the very few who will ever get on my friends list. Yeah I met here there another group of friends and yeah as normal with a LOT of my female friends I had the major hots for her. Yes I am still attracted to her as a guy would have to be crazy not to be but I only see her as a friend and that is it now. I know that if I ever need a helping hand she will always be there for me. Yeah that is it for now. I asked one other person so far to join and not sure if she is going to or not. Yeah this of course would be other girl. What a shocker I know since I have more female friends then males. Yeah this girl is awesome and yeah.. I dont know.. dont feel like saying to much more about that at this point... she is just one of those things that is on my mind and confuses me.. even though it shouldn't. I mean.. fuck I dont know what I mean.. anyways ttyal and if you actually read all this I guess thanks for reading my rant and I will do one some time later.. who knows when though....

Bob

Well not looking good for me. Yeah I am in the Good Friend Zone.. even though I am fucking the hell out of her she mostly sees me as just a freind. She is not even sure she can see a relationship with me actually. I mean I am not really completly out of the water yet.. but yeah... mostley I am now on dry grown.. now I just get to play along and play as though I am not hurt and none of this is buggin me  but yeah... She is getting kicked out of her house on the 15th and since she is still in love with her ex and what not.. I can see him getting her back.. again.. and as I said I wont say I told her so when it turns back into how it was.. him controling her life. He told her that if the did get back together he would be ok with her hnaging out with me and shit. HAHAHA. Bull crap I can tell right now as soon as she gets up there with him I may as well just say good bye to her forever. There is no way he will want her hanging out with the guy that basically has stole her from him. I even told her at this point if we did go fro the relaitonship I would  only trust her with him in publixc or around other people.. ones that I knwo will keep on eye on you some what.. I know how it is over old/first loves.. the always have this power over you even if you dont want them too.. and FUCKING A I am just pissed.. anyways I am going to go and drink myself to sleep.. still will give her the christmas present I have planned on though.. O yeah I got her diomond earings for those who did not know.. only 1/5 carrot but still... I was going to ask her to be my gf and shit.. corny I know but still.. but yeah.. guess that is out the window since she sees me as the Friends... ALWASY THE FUCKING GOOD FRIEND!!!!!!

Wow this is going to have to be a HUGE blog lol. So I have not had a new blog in a shit load of time because yeah.. no reason really just stopped I guess. Ok to start stuff off I get to say I am on a deployment right now. Yeah that is right I actually got one. I am in Kosovo. It all started in July and I will be coming home some time next summer.. probably in july lol. So yeah lets get into the stuff I ALWAYS talk about which ius girls lol. So I am head over heals for this woman named Dawn. As normaly I am some what getting used by her but fuck it I must like this for how long I have been getting myself into this situation. So we are not together becasue of this deployment but it is a 86% chance that when I get done we will have a chance with each other. It pretty mcuh will be on her. I trully do love this one guys. I know I have said that a lot but I have NEVER felt this way about any other woman like I do her. I mean she is a mom and I liek her kid. I NEVER like kids but hers.. hell I would even say I love the little guy lol. She has made me turn from wanting to whore it up for life to being with her and her kid and haviung a daughter with her and yeah.. I just really love this one. Also as normaly she does have her probs but she is trying to fix them. So back to my deployment. It is a VERY boring deployment but that is all good over all being my first one. I just work in the CP so yeah I just sit on my ass all day and man the radios and track where people are and what not. Man I thought I was going to have a lot ot write but I guess I dont lol. Well I will now be writing on here a lot more since it over all is like the only site I can get on and blog on while at work lol. Well ttyal :-)

~Bob

Well by the looks of it I wont be able to update this at work. In the short amount of time I have been on here today the system has picked it up and by the looks of it, its now blocked for the jmost part. I PROMISE I will still be back and start o update more and what not. From looking around I have seen peoples pages and I am like damn I really missed tlaking to these people and I have lost out on some good firends by not coming here anymore. Sorry to those regular people I tlaked to and I hope you all let me back into your lives. Well that is about it for now. Later

~Bob

you know it I REALLY hate it whenb you write a HUGE blog and then you computer goofs up and it deletes teh whole thing... well I just had t put this little complate in and now is a very short version of a once very long and carring blog by me..

I have very muched changed since I was on here last. A lot has changed and I have had to mature for a lot of it to happen. I really do want to settle down now. Yes every once and a while I am like O I want to be a whore and not care and blah blah blah but I know can see that that life is the cop out of love. It is for those that are to scrared to really let go and love. Well I guess I am not a chicken anymore because I truly have completly let myself go when it comes to Dawn.

Here is another bit form it that I must make sure I get out...

I am really sorry to all my odl friends form here. I feel as though I haver let some of you down with how I have been in my life. The one main person is Kt. I really liked her as a freind and cared for her and wanted ot see her happy but yeah I was foolish and started to be wild and yeah.. she booted me from her life and it sucks becasue yeah.. I really did see her as a god friend. If you ever read this Kt I just wanted ot say I am sorry for acting like I did and I hope you can forgive me. I know that dont really mean you will let me back into your life and let me be your firend again but yeah.. I really hope you will forgive me for just acting stupid. Your an amazing woman and I hope your doing great... I am sorry to alot of other people too. I have met quiite a few great people on here and some of them I took forgranted. There was one girl that I started out as just firneds then it when to dirty friends and then I fucke dup.. I started to see her as just a DIRTY firned and not jsut as a firend as well. I really liked her and wanted ot meet her and see what hapend but yeah.. I fucked that up... though she is now going to be with a great guy and that does make me happy. so who knows maybe this trully was the best rout in the end. There are acutally quite a bit more people I feel as though I need to say sorry to but I will now do a some what selfish thing and just say it all at ounce since I wrote this out once before and dont feel like doing it again... I am VERY sorry to all those that use to consider me a friend and I just left. I hope you all forgive me and let me back into your lifes over time.

Later

~Bob

I really miss sex lol... I have changed in many ways but I still love sex and yeah after this month I will be on my longest time wiht out it since I lost my virginity so yeah...it bites lol.. well that be it ttyal

~Bob

so I when I add peoiple to my AIM list it is like a life long contrract for the screen name and it never gets deleted.. that means I have a shit load of people on there that I really have no clue who they are.. well the reason I am writing this is a now know who some of them are again lol. They are of cool people from this site lol. Just going through my contacts page and deleted people and seing who is still even using this site and yeah I have ran intoa couple and has HOLY SHIT!! race through my mind when I saw there screen names since yeah.. they are old firneds from here that I use to talk to lol.. hope to cathc up wiht them at least just to say HEy I use to talk to you lol.. anyways ttyal

~Bob

OK so those that have read my blogs beforeI will flat out say this is not at all related to sex. Well it is in some ways but it is not going to be a dirty blog.

Anyways teh famel body is such a beaufiul thing. I will admit while over here in Kosovo there is a lot of time to just sit and look at porn and what not and over all my taste has but defined in what I like ther but I have also noticed something else when it comes to pictures. I like nude ART. Not like the whole some girl lating out spread eagle or some shit like that I am talkinga bout tastfully done beautiful woman nude. My father send me some pics of this girl next to a snow man and yeah... you could see that she was cold.. but it was so beautiufl. she was jsut out there in a stocking cap and a scarf and just posing and smiling and in some pictures she was laughing.. thos were my favorite ones acutally. They were just so simnple. Take a beautifull few, a field covered in snow and a simple snow man, and add in a beautifull woman with no close. lol I have acutally noticed this change in me for a while. I noticed it more so when I got in this deployment though. a lot of guys here have a lot of dirty pics and what not but after looking thoruhg mine I noticed how many tasefully done softcore if not even none nude pictures I have. I just really like the female body. The smooth skin, the curve of it. I mean god REALLY out did himself with it. I dont know just wanted to blog about this... That be it so ttyal

~Bob

PS: Next blog is about pleasure and pain when it comes to females and males..

So I am now addicted to BattleField 2. I have had this game for a while now but when I was at home for some reason I could never get it work correctly. Well I could get most of it to work but not playing online which is the main point of the game. I can for some reason get it to work all good over here and I LOVE IT!! I mean I knew I was going to but now whenever I get some free time I hop on there and start the shooting. Some times yes I just keep getting my ass kicked but other times I do pretty well actually. The other day I was on one and the the team we were facing had some VERY good flyers so yeah I could barely get to the island to finght before I was shot dead from the copper and jets. Though I look at that and say o well just gives me soemthing to work for. It is funny there are some LT's here that have started to play and it seems they never like to play online. I dont get why though. the one was saying it becasue as soon as he logged on he would just get sniped out and killed again and again. That is acutally the reason I like to play on line too. If you play against the BOTs it is just to easy. I mean yes when you have it on the hardest level for them they are pretty good but it is nothing like real people. Bots can't think like a human and react like one. They can come close but not quite. Anyways that be about all I have to say about that. Later

~Bob

PS: I watched Forest Gump last night, it made me think of Dawn the whole time. I had some tears fall a coupel of times. I really miss her

Ok so there are MANY thing that destroy and back up this idea and there are still a lot of wholes in this thought and it is just a OVER ALL statment and not suppose to be taken in a to deeply thought but yeah... here is the blog.

I think that Females were made to deal with Pain and Males were made to deal with pleasure. I know this may sound wierd and I will probably cancle out this idea throughout this blog but that is waht I believe. I mean I do not think a male could handle the pain of child birth at all. I mean yes we are good with some pains and all. I think when it comes to mass amounts of pain for a short time we are better. Like when it comes to getting your thumb almost cut off with a saw and we have to get to the hospital and they get it all numbed up in the first hour or so and what not that we may deal with better then a female, but when it comes to having a child it is a whole nother story. I mean that is a MASSIVE amount of pain that could be going on for from hours to days and drugs or no drugs I dont think us males could deal with that at all. Thought after it is all done they have another pleasure that us men will never have which is the emotional connection with that child. True we will love that child and protect it tell death but we still dont have the connection a mother has with her children. Though we have another pleasure that I dont think a woman gets. Well she gets one jsut not as powerfulla s us. I am talking about the orgasm. I think the males one HUGE one that takes away the rest of our engergy for the most part must be better then the female one in some way. Yes females can and do have strong orgasms and what not but if you notice females can go for multiples at times when males jsut get one. I think there is areason for this. The one big one gets broken down for the females. I have seen it many times where a female partener will hit a point where they just cant take anymore pleasure. Where if you touch ANY part of there body is makes them shudder and quiver in pleasure. True I love to make a girl hit this point because it is fun though I think it goes to prove my point. I have never heard of a male getting too much pleasure. (on a side note I wrote all this once already and my computer goofed and I am trying to rewrite it but this is not gettign the same flow at all as the original had so sorry about that) I think that if a female got to feel the male orgasm they would faint from it and if the males got to feel the female one it just would not reach to a high enough point for us to really care. I mean god had to think of an idea to make us work so hard to have sex. This can go into other speices to prove this but I feel wierd using bugs to show how us humans are since we are suppose to not be "animals" anymore. Anyeways this is just some thoughts I have had and even though this is not the best written blog and the flow is really bad compared to my orginal jsut think about it. It is an interesting though. Anyways ttyal.

~Bob

So it is Chrsitmas... not that big of a deal when you on deployment.. but yeah.. o well.. Hope you hall have a great one still and enjoy the time with you families and what not. :-)

~Bob

So I just wrote up a HUGE blog about how I am going off of like no sleep right now and wont get some for another day or so and yeah.. but as normal while at work when I puish publish. *POOF* it all went away and the page would not load correct and when I came back here is again had me OLD blog saved up about missing a woman touch and what not.. DAMN I hate when that happens.. well  that be it and I will get a real update soon..ttya Later

~Bob

So I have tried writing a new blog about how I have changed and how I am still the same 4 times now and I just Give up.. maybe some other day I will be able to but not right now though.. later

~Bob

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2008/01/10/ap/strange/main3694866.shtml

Was searchign around for some good News for the Site and I found this interesting and Sad story from CBS. This guy was dead in Australia for a YEAR befoer anyone noticed. It is kind of scarry in a way that someones life can mean so little that no one notices your gone. There are some other pretty cool stories out there for Strange News.. that is actually what I searched on Google to find this story even.

Well I am just VERY bored tonight while sitting here at work and yeah I just DONT CARE anymore.. EVERYONE HERE IS to tell you the truth.. we are all jsut so fed up with this damn BS deployment. I mean it really is BS. So I had a good comment convo wiht Srah for a bit here.. that was fun.. been surfing the interent and since you cant get on almost all sites it is tricky to surf it.. I mean I think it is like 90% of the internet is porn so yeah lol.. Well I dont know what else to say.. just blogging because I am bored.. Well... Later

~Bob

Well teh Colts lost tonight.. that bites..

The Cowboys better Win though or I will be quite pissed then...

Well I heard these guys (Against Me!) a littel bit ago over here on the radio and yeah I dont know if they are big in the states at the moment but they will be I will tell you that. I told one of my friends about them that is usally the person who tells ME about music and they had not heard of them so who knows maybe they are not... anyways I have got all there music so far from the internet and I will say that this is a band that if I find there CD.. even one that I already have downloaded I will buy it just to support them. Anyways just wanted to say if you have not heard these guys you should check them out. Well that be all ttyl..

Cavalier Eternal by Against Me!

This conversation always ends with goodbye

you're standing here behind the door

you're waiting with your hope

 maybe you just have to sleep

 in someone elses bed

maybe you just have to keep

searching for something better than perfect

 which you know will never exis

t its cut and dry

there's no defense-like look on our face

you know this

 the clock is running down on me

 theres no way i can win

maybe you just have to sleep

in someone elses bed

maybe you just have to keep

 searching for something better than perfect

 which you know will never exist

 its cut and dry

i've known this all along

i loved you anyways

despite all your deceit

 this cold point of view

was prepared for how i would have felt

now all we have left are bodies and words

 i can hear your voice forever

maybe you just have to sleep

 in someone elses bed

 maybe you just have to keep

searching for something better than perfect

which you know will never exist

 its cut and dry

This a great song by and amazing band.... yeah.. that be all for now...

BLog BLOG bLOg BLOG bLoG....

BloG BLog

BolG BoLG bLOG....

BLOG!!!!!!!!!

Later

~bOB

So I wrote up this big blog about a simple thing just because I ALWAYS write  more then I need to and I hit publish and since I am on the military computer system it did what?.. that is right it glitch and DID NOT publish it.. DAMN I hate when it does not.. so now I am writing this one and am not going to write about my other thing of figure out what to do of staying up or sleeping tomorrow night becaue there are other factors in it and yeah.. o well I will ttyl...

Scotty Doesn't Know by Lustra from the move Eurotrip

Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me
Do it in my van every Sunday.
She tells him she's in church but she doesn't go
Still she's on her knees and Scotty doesn't know!

Oh Scotty doesn't know!
So Don't Tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty doesn't know!
So Don't Tell Scotty!

Fiona says she's out shopping,
But she's under me and I'm not stopping...

Because Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty doesn't know! (X3)
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!

Don't tell Scotty!

I can't believe he's so trusting,
While I'm right behind you thrusting.
Fiona's got him on the phone,
And she's trying not to moan.
It's a three-way call and he knows nothing!

Scotty doesn't know!(X3)
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!(X3)

We'll put on a show!
Everyone will go!
Scotty doesn't know!(x3)

The parkin lot
Why not? It's so cool when you're on top!
His front lawn in the snow
Life is so hard because Scotty doesn't know!

We did it on his birthday...

Scotty doesn't know!(X4)

Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty won't know!
Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty's gotta know!
Gotta tell Scotty!
Gotta tell him myself!
Scotty doesn't know! (X10)

I mean I would be PISSED if this ever happend to me and I got played by a girl this bad... again I should say... but yeah.. dont know why the song always makes me smile...

Plagiarizing which I still stand that is did NOT do... I knew the teach and she has known me my whole life really so that put me right into her I know how you really are and you not smart enough to write this good sort of nitch or somethign like that.. I dont think I plagiarzed really for the area she called me on but I WAS talking about stuff that I guess I did NOT put into the paper even though I thought I did so because I talked about somethig I did nto have in the paper she went asn said I took it from some place else which is NOT TRUE.. i just wrote out a paragrph about somethign I did not have in any other part of the paper and used words that I really had no idea of what they really ment jsut that they ment the same thing as words I DID know... yeah I like to use the Thesaurus a LOT when I write papers... I am NOT a man of many words so I may as well make it look like I am in a paper.. I mean just look at this whole blog. I have not really used any words that where the like what 6 letters long for the most part.. yeah that sure does say a LOT about my Education huh? I have some of the worst spelling too. I mean I jsut have NEVER been one for caring about that stuff. I have never looked for the mental challenge because yeah... it is ALL a challenge for me.. the ones I look for are physical.. I LOVE physical challenges. I have NEVER turned away from one.. at least at the moment I cant think of any... but yeah.. I will take a break from this for now so I will ttyl.. god I am getting really hot and itchy.. not sure why.. damn my hands are turnig read and itchy too.. I wonder if my face has too.. fuck.. ttya Later...

~Bob

Over all I am back to normal.. I dont have a CLUE what all that was about at all.. it is still little red but it is going away now.. never have had that happen before.. o well whatever.. ttyaLater.. it is SUPER BOWL TIME!!!!!

~Bob

she fucking crossed the line one to many times.. so I told her to Fuck Off and that now I AM the one ending it..

Sorry I DONT fucking love you more then a friend and want to be wiht you.. no reason to fucking reason to twist the knife that is in my back already..

Fuck her... I dont need that shit..

I miss my cowbot hat...

That may sound funny but I do.. I miss my nice black coyboy hat.. and of course my boots as well.. cant wait to get home put on a nice set of jeans, a black or whit t-shit and my black boots and hat...

I mean I have a set for when I am acutally working on the farms and stuff but I like to get dressed in my good set and go out on the town...

Wont lie the ladies DO like a cowboy lol...

Not that I am a cowboy or anything.. I mean fuck I have not gone horseback riding for YEARS...

I am a farmer yes.. though I dont live on a farm.. just have worked on them my whole life....

Wel just a little quick thought I had.. well.. Later

~Bob

So yeah I am jus sitting here hitting refresh on this site and my email and this other site WAITING.and HOPING for an update by people or just ANYTHING.. I am so fucking bored right now...

Later

~Bob

I HATE WHEN PEOPLE USE THE WRONG Two,too,to's ... I mean even for this I have to list them all of because to use just one does not seem right..

I mean I HATE when anyone even myself goofs and uses the wrong one.. I just noticed that I did that in a comment to a friend.. I worte "to much" and not "too much"... dont know why since I SUCK at spelling I should not have something like this bugging me but it does..

Later

~Bob

She is SOOOOO HOT!!!

She was HOT in Freaks & Geeks

She was HOOOOOOOTTT ins Scooby-Doo 1 and 2

She is HOOOOOTTTT in Er

She be HHOOOOOOOOTTTT in Comanche Moon

If you have not guess I find this woman HHHHHOOOOOTTTTTT... I try to not use that word since it is very much over used but I just CANT not use it... Yeah she was in the Jan  08 Maxim Mag.... She has changed through the years yes but one thing has always been true... and that is.. she is HOT lol..

Yeah this is just a very simple minded basic instincts blog which I normally try to stray away from over all but o well.. some times a guy just has to be a guy

Later

~Bob

Ok so a LOT of my post have been set to people just under my friends list.

I even go as far to break that down into sections.

People Start as online contacts

Then they move to Co-Workers if they make some comments and seem to visit the page often enough.

Then you go to the Classmates. This really is not to different the Co-Worker just puts another step up in a way

Then there is the Family Sextion. This is where I very rarely but some time post the more private deeper thoughts  and troubles I am going through. Most of the time I then gradually right out those thoughts in the next couple of blogs but to be in the family section mean you get some blogs that are the full blunts of what I am thinking and dealing with and what not.

Over all there is not a huge different in any of these just some blogs here and there.  Just saying if you really do want to read more of my blogs just ask to be added to my freinds and yeah I will add you up. I am really not that picky since I like to meet people and make freinds. Well hope you are all doing great and Later

~Bob (My shwarts is bigger then yours!)

Ok so this Site Geek and Poke is fucking GREAT!!!!

These are two of the more recent post on the site.

If you are a Computer nerd you will love it. Hell even if you are not a nerd you will probably still read some of them and find them funny.

They are just SOOO FUNNY!!

The link is bookmarks or just google Geek and Poke...

So today Kosovo has said FUCK YOU ALL WE ARE FREE and yeah.;. now they are a country...

Normally I would not care but since I am here it is kind of cool I guess...

It has taken them a long as time so yeah... You can now go back to not paying any attention to this area again k...

Later

~Bob

I think if the words that both me and Dawn have been saying since we can now talk to each other stay as true as they seem to be... well.. it is a good out look for us then at the moment. God I cant wait to see her. It is so nice being able to really talk to her and not just through other people and what not. Hell it may work out now for her to get me from the Airport even  lol. god that would kick ass lol.

Later

~Bob

ok so I really have not been on for 2 days.. yes I did blogs but nothing like it hs been really and WOW I feel out of the loop. Like there are so many updates I am having to go back and read. Yeah there is NO WAY I will be going and dropping this site now like I did for a while. I would lose touch with to many people and I dont want that. I feel as though I really do have freinds through this thing now and yeah... I dont want to lose them by dropping off of the site.. I am not sayin I am thinking about doing that just saying from just two days of pretty much being off of it makes me see how much I can miss it in such a short time. Well I hope you all are good and Ttya Later

~Bob

Last night when me and Dawn were talking we got on the subject of sex with no surprise as you can see some of it in another blog I wrote tonight. Well one part of it I made a joke but true statement of I wonder how she will be when she is sober. That is right I have NEVER slept with her were we are both sober. She at least has always been drunk. Me some of the times but yeah her always.. Her commetn was that yeah she is probably going to be a bad lay while sober.. While drunk she is a let fuck RIGHT NOW and go at it hard as hell like to rabits, but while sober she would want to me passionate love. I told her I would love to make love to her. Put ALL of my passion in every touch I do. Yes I say this for how I always have sex which is true but for Dawn it would be so much more. I cant express in words how I would want her to feel. After I said I would love to make love to her she told me she does not really believe anyone has ever made love to her. I am not sure what to take by this since I know her and her husband(cant really say ex since the goverment still sees them as together) DID love each other very much at one time. Well I at least know she very much loved him. She is still in love with him but not really the man he is now but the man he was. Anyways back to the making love thing. I would love to make love to her and have her look at it as a first in a way. The first time a man REALLY took care of her needs both emotional and physically in the one act. God I really do love this woman. I mean I know in the last year she has changed but I really think it probably over all will be for the best that these changes happend. Yes I did love thay wild woman she was but she also very much needed to regrow up. Funny for me being only 21 to say for some one to grow up but it is true. Anyways just some thoughts going through my head. I want sex yes very much so but to make love to her would be amazing. Though I still plan on doing as said and not doing anything with anyone tell I am in a relationship. I may over all not feel like a man yet but there are some things I do know it is time I grow up on and sex is one of them.

Later

~Bob

I really think I should start to work on how I write blog. Maybe start writing with a better format.. wait I mean actually writing with a format in general lol. Like Paragraphs and correct spellings and everything... I dont know.. just a though..

Later

~Bob

Ok so at the end two blog ago  made a comment about being a man. This has always been a tricky subject with me. What is it that really make you a Man? The reason I ask this is because I really dont feel like I can say I am one. I dont feel as though I have had a challenge so to say that I had to stand up and face on my own that makes me say "See, I am a man now." I mean I would not call myself a boy either but not yet a man. That is one reason I wanted to go ona deployment. True I DID get one but not the type I wanted. I wanted to go some place dangerous. I mean I am not up for dying or anything, yes I do may seem to have a death wish but I dont want to die. Just feel as though if any place was going to make me stand up and have to be a man some place like that would. As an Infantry Soldier I have the long for battle. I will never really feel complete tell I HAVE seen some shit. No it is not something I am going to run into but I still feel the need. I mean I have no clue how I will handle it. I hope I rise up to the occasion and maybe do better then people even expect of me but again that really is an unknown tell it happens. Well I dont know where else to go with this blog. I dont feel as though I wrote what I was trying for but the message of my self-questioning still probably got across ok. I just want to be able to stand up and say that Yes I am a Man, and\ adult. I am scared of it, but I want.

Later

~Bob

The Five Love Languages

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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What a shocker it Say I like Touch!!! Who Would Have Thought!!!

Stole this from Fabbylishi page.

I took it and then looked at the site it was on. The main page start with this sentance...

"Breakout is a full-time project for young people aged 13 to 25 who identify as lesbian, gay, bisexual, transsexual, transgender or unsure of their gender or sexual identity"

Ok so that made me laugh some since well as I have been, but dont get, by firends I am the gayest straight man they know. It was kind of interesting looking into the page though. It was like a support group or something.

Another part of the page made me lough too.(No I am not laughing about the gay stuff and if you have not read much of a blog and think I am Fuck off k lol) Anyways the other part that made my laugh was a part about people using gay and stuff as a negative word. Ok the reason I found this really funny is becasue my friend Jake is gay and still call shit gay that is lame and what not. It is funny because to this day when he says it we are like DUDE You GAY how is you still use that word like that.. He is like "Yes I am gay but that movie we just got out of was REALLY FUCKIING  GAY!!!" and we all just laugh. Of course he is also one into the whole tie me up whip, the shit out of me, and fuck me like a stallion sort of sex... the VERY rough stuff. 

Anyways this turned out to be an interesting little blog just from finding and doing a little quiz from a random page lol

Later

~Bob

R- Sexy thing!

O- You're an awesome person.

B- Good all around person.

E- You have a nice ass.

R- Sexy thing!

T- You're loyal to those you love.

What does your name mean?
A- Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever
E- You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.

O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy thing!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do
Y- One of the best bf/g's anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find

another thing I stole from Fabbylish who stole it from one of her friends lol

My boxers are falling apart. I have 3 bocers here that are kind of like silk like feeling and I love them because.. well they are just comfortable.... and the seems are falling apart. If I was at home I would not put them in dryer as wash them as like delicates and stuff but since I dont do my own loundry here and dont even have the option to they just get the good old mass washing with all the rest of my cloths. I would try to patch up the seem myself but they probably would not even hold through a wash anyways. Like I can still where them and all but yeah. It is on the part between the legs where it all come together. This is the place where they normally fall apart anyways from the wear of walking but yeah it just sucks. O well hopefull when I get home next month I will find more of them at good old Wally World. Just doubt I will find the patterns I have now. I have one that is black with yellow smily face, one that is black witha pattern of  red peppers and the words Hot Stuff on it, and the last one is good old Camo. O well I will find some that I do know since the other boxers I have I jsut dont like. I mean they are fine but for osme reason when warn in the uniform they ride up. Yeah yeah TMI but o well. Anyways I will ttyaLater

~Bob

My boxers are falling apart. I have 3 bocers here that are kind of like silk like feeling and I love them because.. well they are just comfortable.... and the seems are falling apart. If I was at home I would not put them in dryer as wash them as like delicates and stuff but since I dont do my own loundry here and dont even have the option to they just get the good old mass washing with all the rest of my cloths. I would try to patch up the seem myself but they probably would not even hold through a wash anyways. Like I can still where them and all but yeah. It is on the part between the legs where it all come together. This is the place where they normally fall apart anyways from the wear of walking but yeah it just sucks. O well hopefull when I get home next month I will find more of them at good old Wally World. Just doubt I will find the patterns I have now. I have one that is black with yellow smily face, one that is black witha pattern of  red peppers and the words Hot Stuff on it, and the last one is good old Camo. O well I will find some that I do know since the other boxers I have I jsut dont like. I mean they are fine but for osme reason when warn in the uniform they ride up. Yeah yeah TMI but o well. Anyways I will ttyaLater

~Bob

I wanted to write about some deep thoughts again. I mean I have soem in my head about Jealousy but I dont know how to write them. I mean I started to but I just was not feeling it and it also just made me look likea  HUGE asshole... I mean YES I may be an asshole in many ways but not a HUGE one... yeah.. I dont know.. weill just have to ponder them and some other stuff for a while and see what happens.

Later

~Bob

I really cant wait to get home and see Dawn. It really has changed my mood so much with the whole being able to really talk to her over the last week or so. Yes I want to see everyone else but I she is the one I really cant wait to see. I will need to talk to my parents about that. I know they also very much want to see me but I think I may have Dawn there to pick me up from the Airport. I mean I guess if the parents really want to be there to they can but yeah.. the way I will explane it will be to my mom probably... well actually my dad would probably get it too. So they way I see it is with Dawn is this is the woman I want for my life... yes I mean as in my WIFE... so me coming home with no kids I of course would want to see her first if she was my wife right? See the way I will say it "Ok look at it this way Dad/Mom, if you were gone this long with out seeing Mom/Dad; wouldn't you long to hold the person you love before you parents?" I was thinking of saying your family but for them that also puts kids in the mix so yeah I think saying parents puts it in a better sort of outlook for them. Well those are some of my thoughts... God I cant wait to get home for a bit.

Later

~Bob

So I am at work right now and the bitg wigs of the company are in a meeting. Well all of a sudden our First Sgt comes out and asks me who all went and did this one March thing last Month. YOu know that one I wrote about that I missed the turn and went 9 miles in the wrong direction... well they asked me who all did it and then just yelled for how to spell my name.. I wonder what they are doing with that info for us.. just worries me.. I may like to do phyiscal challenges but I dont really like to get congradulated for doing it...

Later

~Bob

I dont know what I will  buy for a vehicle when I get home. I want 3 big buys. A vehicle, A motorcycle, and tattoos. Yeah the tats I am putting as one thing even thought tthere will be several. Dont plan on having to much skin showing by the time I die lol... but yeah I just dont have a clue what I will buy for the motored vehicles part. I mean I was tempted to get another outback but yeah... it just is not me lol.. more so thinking either of a SUV or a smaller truck. For the Truck I am now thikning the Chevy S10 ZR2 Off Road. It is a small high up truck that just looks good and is practicle for my life... for the SUV.. well I dont know.. dont care even.. maybe a GMC Gimmy. My mom has one of those and it was what I started to drive first off and I like it... who knows will just have to wait tell I get home and go shopping around and see what is there. That is about what I am doing with the bike too. I really dont know anything about bikes. I will be talking to the guys next door about that purchise. I mean I have ALWAYS wanted a bike. It is a dream that came form my dad really lol. Though unlike him I will be doing it. NO I will not get a Death Rocket. Those things just.. yeah they are not my style really. This first one wont be anythign fancy that is for sure. I dont feel like spending a lot of money on something that I will probably lay down on the ground while learning.. I mean no matter what that will hurt anyways so why bother make it worse with it being a new bike right? I need to read up on the permit book again. I mean it should not be to hard to get the permit but yeah still need to research it again. Then I will get to challenge of learning how to ride a bike. I think I will probably look into see if there are any of though classes around my area. That way not only do I learn how to in a safe envirment but it will help with insurance. They like when you have classes like that. I know when I get home I will be turning in some classes I took on driving over here to try and make mine go down. Yeah lets just say I have head a heavy foot over the years and have made it go up some. Well I get a trip ticket to go turn in so I will ttyaLater

~Bob

Holy shit the one above(datable) is like dead on how I am really lol.. scary..

Yeah I will be doing several more still since I am VERY bored.. so yeah.. enjoy my results lol

Later

~Bob

Fuck Yeah I liked that one...

A Quiz on the "A Christmas Story"  and being who I am of course I Aced it HAHAH

Lol ok so I cant lie I was hoping I would get Han Solo as my guy too.. I mean come on.. I just fit that charactor so fucking well lol

Well that be my work day so I hope you all enjoyed the quizzes and TtyaLater

~Bob

http://www.pentago-online.com

Go try this game out. It is VERY simple to learn but god damn I keep getting my ass kicked by the AI. It is a game, like chess, that you have to plan for future moves. Later

~Bob

So my friends divyneactress taged me back in back in Nov..of 2005... to do this and if I was not so bored and searching my other names online I would not have found this.. anyways sorry for taking a bit to get to it babe and here it be.

1. Go into your archives.
   
2. Find your 23rd post.
   
3. Post the fifth sentence (or closest to it).
   
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
   
5. Tag five other people to do the same thing.  

Ok so my 23rd blog was a little quiz so I guess I will show the 5th question and answer I got...

weapon of choise

swords

Yeah I know pretty sucky sentance but o well I have a boring blog for the most part..

Well time for my victims..

meechagurl7 

loveinstereo

josiejunk  

cas 

underground1986 

Best way to get there fast for those that do this is by this route

http://[insert you user name here and remove brakets].mindsay.com/?entry=23

This should bring you strait to you 23rd entry

Well that was something to do for a bit.. ttyaLater

~Bob

"Paranoid Park"

The M16 SUCKS.. the M4 SUCK... there are so many better models of weapons out there.. they next gen of rifle that looks like the army will be going after should be GREAT though... saw a vid of it.. it was them poring sand into the bolt and the fucker just went right on shooting.. it was pretty bad ass.. the 16 and 4 get stuck pretty fucking easly.. they are lame...

And that is all I have to say on that. Later

~Bob

I HATE IT when people reply to you COMMENTS to some ones blog when they really mean to COMMENT to that persons blog and not not reply to you comment.. some dude replied to my commment and was using fucking CHESSY ASS pick up lines to get this girl or somethign I dont even know it was just LAME and it is just one of those pet peaves that bugs me.. it dont take to much to hit COMMENT instead of REPLY!!!

~Bob

I have seen a lot of people use it around lately and yeah... I dont know.. it is just a really tricky word for me to use and I think some people use it to quick at times... I wish I knew French.. they have several different words for love.. I mean in like defferent lvl of it so when you say I love you the person knows at like what lvl oyu mean it.. in the US we have one word that can mean so much and so little in a way and I hate that... because I now dont know how to use it really I guess.. I mean.. I dont even feel right saying I love you to my family.. I mean I am VERY carefull when I say it.. when I do say it to firends it is a "Hey (name) YOu know I love you as goreat firend." or somethign like that.. I always feel as though I have to add what kind of love I mean... I dont know.. just some thoughts that are not all fully thought out.. what a shocker me with messed up twisted not full thoughts that I cant figure out or rationalize.. later...

~Bob

The Dirty Glass

By: DropKick Murphys

Murphy, Murphy darling dear I long for you now night and day.

Your pain was my pleasure your sorrow my joy

I fear now I've lost you to health and good cheer.

Darcy when I met you i was 5 years too young,

a boy beyond his age or so I'd tell someone.

 -Anyone who'd listen and a few who couldn't care

still I welcomed you with open arms my love I did share.

Darcy, Darcy darlin dear you left me dying,

crying there in whiskey, Gin and pints of beer

I fell for you my darling dear.

You shut me off then you showed me the door.

-But you always came crawlin back beggin me for more.

I showed you kindness a stool and a tab.

-Then you poured me my pain in a dirty glass.

Yeah you left him bloody battered penniless and poor.

-You know I often stopped to wonder how he made through my door.

With my brothers new non-duplicate registry I.D.

-Well you bit off more than you could chew the first day you met me.

Darcy Darcy darlin dear you left me dying

crying there in whiskey Gin and pints of beer

I fell for you my darling dear.

You weren't the first to court me mister you won't be the last.

-Oh I'm sure I wasn't honey I know all about your past.

Well listen to the big shot with his pager on call

you spent most of those nights in my bathroom stall.

-Yeah, you got him high but you left him low.

Mind your own business boy how was I to know

that he was just a fiend and a no good cheat.

-Well thats all in the past bitch cause now I got it beat.

is my favorite subject. I mena yes you people on here who read my blogs know how I am and that I was/am a slut. Though I DONT want to have that image anymore.. for the people who meet me in person. Though it is hard to not have that when you favorite topic of convo is sex. There are a lot of people though when they first meet me in person they think that I am just this nice sweet guy... but then I open my mouth and start to talk. lol. That is the way with tif. When she met me.. well acutally we met times before but I mean the first time we REALLY met she thought I was just a nice innocent sweet guy. I told her I liked sex and how I study and all she thought it was cute. Then after really dancing with me and talking to me more.. she was  shocked at how much I ment what I said. Then when we had sex it was a wow I went from "Mr. Nice to Fuck Star" (her words not). Anyways to my point.. acutaly this really has no point now that I think about it. So one of my friends on here wrote a blog to say sorry she has some dirty thoughts going through her head and me being me.. that is ALL it took to turn me on a little... sorry I like it when woman are dirty. I like it when they get dirty and freaky and kinky. I mean I have yet to realu get the chance to be that way. Actually little did I know I HAVE had the chance. I guess Dawn is WAY more freaky then I even thought which makes the end of that suck even more... I doubt she will change enough for us to be together.. starting to see that dreams dont come true.. it sucks.. anyways.. Tif is also a FREAK.. she pretty much like to be a fuck doll, for the guy to just take her and put her how they want and fill whatever hole he want to fill. I mean we were talking dirty and SHE is the one that brought up the comment for her ass not me. I mean I have never done anal sex with a girl and since most either dont like it or dont even want to try it I just dont bring it up. Though after leave I am starting I may have to open up my own kinky door a little more. It seems that the girls I have liked in the last while have all been really freaky just scared to really let loose. Damn I should not be thinkg about sex like this.. it is jsut self torture.

I love to hear the pleasure in a woman voice and breath. I like my woman to make noise plain and simple. If drunk I have been told that I like dirty talk.. while sober I never have really but whiel drunk.. well.. I guess I am like these girls and even I get mreo kinky lol.

Well that be enough sex talk for now. Time to go back to the just self tourtur in my mind. Sorry for putting you through another pointless blog lol

Ttyalater

~Bob

PS- did not bother with the NC-17 for this since well.. fuck by 15 "they know it all" anyways.. hell by 10 I knew the basics.. not nearly as much as now but plunty....

I dont feel like writing to tell you the truth but I just cant get my fingures to stop moving really it is strange. Like I have NOTHING to say at all but here I am just writinig about writing and not saying anything and not wanting to write. It is amazing that we can do that in a way though, just write out random thoughs like this. I am not even thinking about much. Well obvously I am thinking about sex, but besides that not shit. Just listening to music and bumming at work. God it is so fun to have a job that mean NOTHING. I mean really my job here is pointless. It is so VERY important. I mean no joke there it IS an importnat job. One of the most really but at the same time unless something comes up it is pointless. I write down everything that is going on for the recorreds and if something happens they will be looked at and what not but if nothing happens whihc is the most likely outlook for my location in the world.. it be pointless. Also I track where people are at. So when the CO or 1st Sgt want to send a msg to some one or get some info form them or jus tknow where they are at the come to me. So in that aspect I am important. Thought at the same time.. I am uselss. My pinky fingure is starting to get tired form hitting the SHIFT key. I mean I still over all use the hot keys to the point but at the same time I have came up with my own writing style that works but it is just strange. I only really use me right pinky to hit the shift key. Not sure why I picked up this habit but I did. I also dont even use my pinkies for the normal writing. I am trinying to figure out how I type now and the only way I can do it is while typeing by the fact that I am then thinking about it makes me screw up. I just tried to type with my fingures ont hat hots keys and damn I cant do that anymore. I may need to start practicing doing that. I mean if I ever get a job they may care about the way I type and if I type as fast as I do now tihw my strange way if I relearn the hot keys and really actually work on them I bet I could be really fucking fast doing that. I also need to work on ym spellings. Does anyone have any good ideas on how to work on spelling. Is there any good adault Spelling programs or books out there in the world. I know my spelling sucks so I may as well try to work on it. I also sort of wish I still had my guitar here now. I brought it home on leave because I never practiced it but with it being warmer outside I would be able to sot hat kind of bites. O well that be life. Anyways that is enough babbling for now I think. O wait no it is not. I really want to better myself mentally. I mean I HATE the idea of it because well when it comes to mental challenges I get REALLY lazy and dont like to do the,. That be the reason I do back at college. I never really wanted to do it.  I doubt I really even want to do it now, but at the same time I feel I need to start bettering myself some how and get into a better way of life. I mean yes wal-mart is not as bad as everyone makes it seem. I mean ok so it is not the cream of the crop of jobs but it is a lot better then most people think it is. Yes in the short run you get fucked but after you have worked there for like 3-4 years you may as well just stay working there. It really is not even as bad on the money as most people would think. I need to figure out what I want in my life. Where do I want to go for outside the military.. better yet where do I really want to go inside it. I think I will go on another deployment in the next year. I mean I really dont have a reason not to and the money sure would be great. Yes I know it is not all about money but still. it would be nice. I would love to get on a deploymetn that lets me be a 11C too. That is my acutaly job, a mortarman. I have not done shit with themreally for such a long time. There is going to be a live fire in a week but no one from my company will be doing it because we have not had a mortars exam in a long as time and we wont have one done before it either. Well ok now I REALLY am done so ttyal k.

TtyaLAter

~Bob

PS: I dont know why I always end with my Talk To You All Later thing all the time.. it is like a little trade mark of me I gues.. I always have had some sort of ending I stick with for a while... ok really ending this now.. really I am.. right... now

I wonder how many blogs I will write today... I doubt they will be as long as they were the other day... those three were long as shit... Well ttyalater.. very soon most likely..

~Bob

I logged onto RCTC today to look at my unofficial transcript. Part of me wanted to gander on at the classes... it made me almost want to go back to school. Though it would be a waist at the moment. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. If I get my schools after this deployment I would not even have a chance to go to school in tell next spring anyways... who knows.. maybe by then I will have more stuff figured out and know what I want to do for my life.... or maybe I will be going active army.. or on another deployment. who knows... just get to wait and see now I gues...Later

~Bob

You Don't Know What Love Is Lyrics

tagindex.mws ... you add that after you name like this..

http://bobobegone.mindsay.com/tagindex.mws

I NEVER knew about this feature.. it is pretty cool.. am I just really slow or did any one else no about this thing...?

Ok so besides this site I normally sit at work doing the Wiki thing and just passing through random topics whihc I will still do but most of the time they all have to do with comics for me. Well I now have a site for JUST that thing..

Comicbookdb.com

It is all about comics and this site has EVERYTHING... I have spent all day on it and will probably for the next couple of days actually lol.. Later

~Bob

You probably noticed this but my blogs are all about the same old stuff again and again just in some what different ways. That is what happens when you are on deployments. You life stops over all. Parts of it yes may keep going but for the most part.. it just stops... it sucks a lot to sit and wait for a year to pass so you can start to live again. I dont like writing about the same stuff over and over again it is just I have nothing else to do.

~Bob

You probably noticed this but my blogs are all about the same old stuff again and again just in some what different ways. That is what happens when you are on deployments. You life stops over all. Parts of it yes may keep going but for the most part.. it just stops... it sucks a lot to sit and wait for a year to pass so you can start to live again. I dont like writing about the same stuff over and over again it is just I have nothing else to do.

~Bob

My bike will be black but beyond that I DONT KNOW.. but I still cant wait to get it. O and I am 99.99% sure it wont be a crotch rocket either.. they just are not me...I plan on getting my license shortly after getting home and getting my bike and just riding.. should be a blast.. sad to say people.. well a couple girl.. i know will want ride and yeah.. that wont happen for a bit,.even if I feel all good riding by myself I dont think I will be ready for really giving other rides this bike season.. I dont know.. maybe.. but probably not.. also depends on the bike and all... just know I cant wait to get one... That is it.. Later

~Bob

PS: I HAVE FUCKING HICK-UPS!!!! I hate them fuckers...

It is not that we are saying we are right.. we just wont ever say we are wrong lol...

I am in a strange random mood.. dont ask..

Sarah A great friend just said "the things you stop (in life) because of fear are the things you regret most" thats the only thing in this world i needed to hear.

Damn I CAN say some things that are smart.. the (in life) part is an edit I just put in there so you knew what we were talking about..

Just some pics I have taken be them cam or cell that I have thought just were cool and Artsy like... which made me laugh for the one where I am shirtless and in shorts since you can barely see the shorts.. does that mean I get to get in the news too since I have a "nude" pic like Miley.. sorry I had to say it..

Anyways I hope you enjoy some of my random snap shots that I have done.. ttyaLater
~Bob

--EDIT--

Thought I would add that the second one is of some lighting I snapped with my cell while draving.. it was a crazy storm I was out in and sad to say that was the only one I really caught.. buit since I was driving it was hard.. so I was happy with it still lol..

Why cant my NCOs get that I DONT WANT TO BE ONE!!! I am ok with being just an E-4 right now. I have no want or need to be an NCO at all. I am not ready for more pressure then I already have on me. Hell I already cant handle the little bit that is put on me. Why not let other guys who WANT that go to the WLC school.. why is it when I say NO I dont want to do that and NO I dont want a packet put in for a promotion they say o well you are doing it anyways... I dont think I am going to sign the packet though when it is done.. I mean yes they will be mad but they cant force me to fucking write my name on it.. I DONT want to be an NCO right now. I will get there. I WILL be one and when I am one I will do a great job at it and I will have my shit down tight like it should be.. not like it is right now. Right now I dont know my own job, I dont know the facts that EVERY member of the Army should know.. simple stuff on your weapon and fuck I will admit at time I am even weak on my rank structure. Which is very sad.. Why cant they just leave me alone to do the job they gave me at the mometn and let me be. I HATE being forced to do things. I hate being told to be motivated because it just makes me not want to do shit..  yes that is the little rebel in me that is still not done fighting and I hope he never does.. but god damn it.. I DONT want it...

That is it.. LAter

~Bob

I thought this one hit so well that it should get a blog of its own.....

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

ok to be trully schizophrenic would be scary... true if you are you would not know it or anything but after you to figure out that you are if ever.. it would suck SO much... Yeah I know this is random but just think.. there would be another you but not... a whole nother being that you would not know what they are doing when it is them... it is just scary...

~Bob... ir at least I hope I am..

I just dont get how some women go so long wiht out sex. Like they want sex and all but have gone 10 month and beyond with out it. The reason this seems such a loss for me is because I have always seen the power of when sex happens in the hands of the woman.. or between the legs of a woman I guess. Anyways Men are horn dogs. Yes in a relationship if the man is good he will just go fuck crazy on his one girl but if single we go back to our animal instict. This means to spread our seed to as many women as we can. In MANY spieces it is the female of the sex that chooses the mate and that is how I have seen it with humans as well. True I just answered my question where the woman will say I just have not found a man worth doing stuff with, but par tof me sees that as a cop out and you must not really want the sex as bad as you say. See for a man after about 5 months with out and single.. he will drop whatever standurds he has by quite a lot and go out to the bar find some chick that will do stuff with him both get waaisted have the fun and then go back to his normal life.. unlesss he be unlucky and got something from the girl or stupid and planted his seed. Anyways back to the the point and my mystery...

How are cute girls going with out sex when they want it? I just DONT GET IT!!

That is it for now.. Later

~Bob

I have a hard time excepting change when it comes to female firends. If they were the nice girls all through high school that would never do drugs or be wild and then turn around nad smoke pot in college or after HS and stuff and just become party girls.. I SUCK at excepting it.. like I dont want to.. I like my sugar cookie outlook on life.. I have my dirty wild side of life and my happy go lucky side and I like to keep them seperate.. I dont like them to mix as the have. I know that is just part of life and as we grow we have to see that the world is not what it was when little but god damn it I suck at doing that. I just look down on these girls that were going down such a great path in life and tehn BAM they are going out parting it up and doing drunks and yeah... just not good at excepting that change.. bad from good is easy to do... good to bad I just cant do...Later

~Bob

I am a sappy guy. I will neve be a mans man. I over all never be the one wearing that pants in the relationship, though I wont be in the dress either. I can be a HUGE push over, but I do have limits and standers that if you hit I show you a side you dont want to see. I am very much in touch with my feminine side. I like chick flicks. I like love songs that make me think about the one dear to me. I have songs that remind me of my exes too. I use songs to escape and think about stuff at the same time. I care about my looks a lot. I will never be happy with my chin. I am very critical when it comes to sex. Correction I am Too critical when it comes to sex, I always want to be my lovers top partener. I feel like I have failed if I dont give a woman an orgasm even if she did feel great amounts of pleasure. I fall hard and fast for females. I love to flirt. I love to make a woman smile. I love to share tips on simple touch that can give more pleasure then what most would expect. I really dont do anything special when it comes to sex, just try to make every touch have a peice of my heart in it. I am jealous because I am greedy. I want all great woman for myself and I dont want to share them. I try to not be a nice guy. I try not to be a mean or player guy. I am over all just a normal guy. Most nice guys are just assholes in sheeps clothing. I am not confident at all that is why I feed off of peoples compliments. I will use it as a future reference but the pics I put up recently coomparing to each other were just my way of grabbing for compliments. I dont like to admit that but it is true. I was a HUGE loser in school and was always trying to get people to like me. I still change myself to make people like me. I dont know who I am anymore. You people know me better then I do. You read thoughts and secrets that people in my real life world will never know. If I could have one super power it would to be able to make Multiples of myself so I could go after everything I want in life with out having to make choices. I hate making big choices. I am scared to grow up. I have no money managment skills. I REALLY cant spell as you all know. I am scared to go home and see Dawn and play out the part of my life no matter which way it goes. I cant wait to get home and see Dawn and play out that part of my life. I love Brayden and I would love to one day have him look to me as a father figure even though he does have a dad. I hope to at least always be a friend to him. If Joe won Dawn away from me I would not be mad at him because he is a good guy. Me and him get along great and it is really strange since I know he also wants Dawn. I always wanted to be a punk but never had the moeny to buy the "style". I think it is funny that a style that started by the pore youth is now one othat only the youth with money can really stay "in style" with. I LOVE shopping at wal-mart. I love to shop in general. I like to bring others out shopping and get them to toss there money away like I do. I would have great style if I was a female. Working at wal-mart is not as bad as it may sound though I will NEVER like working there. I dont like telling people I work there becasue I feel they look down on me. The company is not as evil as people make it out to be. It is not as nice as some people want to believe it is either. Target is just like walmart. It is not nicer to you community at all so not shopping at wal-mart but shopping there is just stupid. I like being random and have a problem of gettnig off topic. I am narcissistic and like to take pis of myself and talk about my self.(like this blog) I think this blog may make some people look a little different at me but over all wont change how they seem me as a person. I think people are sick of me talking about Dawn. I am so ready for this deployment to be done with. I am scared to die and that is why I just plan on dying young so if I live to be old it will trully be a gift. If you live to 103 you live forever because to a child 103 is forever and a day. I really like The Dave Mathews Band. I like all types of music but trend to stay away from Pop. I will always be a huge fan of country becuase "there songs about me." I wish I would have been more hick when I was younger. I wish I would have rode horse more. I wish I would have really tride to be good at something in my life. I am not really good at anything. The only thing I act cocky about is sex and as stated above I really dont know anything to special just put alot of feeling into it. I really like to listen to other peoples problems to escape my life. I really would love to go into theropy but I know I will wont and will just forever make up reasons as to why I wont. I hate to think and I am becoming less intelligent because of it. I dont like that last fact but I still keep going down that path. I want to become really good at something but I dont know what that thing would be. I dont type on the set keys that your ment to but it is something close and I dont need to watch my figures so it work. If I think about how I type while doing it I screw up. I have a muscle memory to type "your" as "you". I hate when people use the wrong form of to/too/two. At this moment I am on my 3rd time updating this entry becasue I dont want to start a new one. I am attracted to older woman. I will write a blog on this next. I dont have anything else to say yet I keep writing. I will stop for now but this wont be the last msg and I will come back for a fourth time most likly

Well I think that is long enough dont you think? Well this was a VERY open blog and I am making it for anyone to read. I think any new readers of my blog might read this and get a good idea of who I am. I do not know what it says to who I am but there it is. I will probably write another one of these some day coming up. If not o well it took up some time. ttyaLater

~Bob

PS: I have this thing of ending with ttyaLAter (Talk To You All Later). I say I will write more about somethign later but then forget to or just lose interest. I add a lot of PS's to my blog though I could just go back and add them into the actualy body. I dont use formay so there is not clear body. I rant on a lot. I am stopping this entry right NOW!

So WLC is done and I back to my normal Deployment again. It is actually kind of nice to tell you the truth. Since the Grad I have been watching Supernatural pretty much. Dont with the first season and have only 3 left in the second. YEah that was like two days of my life in a way of just watching it. Not that there is much else to do here lol. Anyways I have to get another bag packed up to be sent home. I like this getting near the end thing. Makes life a little easier in a way. Anyways I will probably write more later tonight just going to Surf around facebook and here for a bit catching up on peoples lives. Later

~Bob :-)

I really dont have much to say lately... not much is going on.. starting to pack up to hear home so that is good. but rather then that.. it is all good really.. cant wait for our replacements to show up.... cant wait to see Dawn... I think it should be going good when I get there... but yeah... ttyalater

~Bob

PS: Sorry I dont have much else to say...

MY TURN MY TURN!!!!!

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your partner?

We have shared before...

How old will you be on your next birthday?

22

Have you ever seen a live bat?

Yes and I killed it too... I am the mop wielding Bat killer at my job lol

Is there anything/anyone you hate?

Yeah...

Do you like the color orange?

It was my favorite color for many years...

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?

Yes

Would you rather not drink [any liquid at all] or not sleep?

Not sleep 

Have you ever seen a real redneck?

*Raises hand* I am one just like the rest of my fam and a lot of my friends... 

So tattoos and piercings excite you?

GOT YES!!!

What's the meaning of life?

7.. no joking.. it is sex :-)

What size shoes do you wear in womens/mens?

Men 10.5w-11.5w

What's your favorite season?

Winter

Do you care if people talk smack about you?

depends on what it is...

At what age do you want to get married?

hell if I know lol...

How long are you on the phone daily?

well since I am on a deployment over sees.. not much.. on internet msger systems.. a LOT

Sorry, I forgot to ask your name, what is it?

Bob.. no joke.. it really is Bob

Are you in a good mood? 

yeah.. good and horny heheheh

Do you think people will exist forever? 

Na 

Do you believe in luck? 

ya

Everything happens for a reason, right? 

No

Would you rather skydive or bungee jump? 

both

Do you like snakes? 

Better than sp!ders. (I agree with this)

Where is one place that you'd like to visit?

NOT Kosovo for everyone else.. this place sucks.. I want to go to Alaska

Do you like waffles?

yep

Anything you're looking forward to?

getting home to get laid and drunk 

Do you have more or less than five best friends? 

well I would say I had 3 but now after leave it might be 2... dont ask.. not sure how it is playin gout still...

What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you?

say o well and know that I will talk to them in the future.. he is like a bro and we have been best friends since Pre-School

Does the number 23 have any significance to you?

nope...

Be honest, do you like people in general?

some people

Big or small dogs?

both

Do you like Big Macs?

Nope

Did someone bother you today?

HELL YES

What do you think about death?

It happens.. still need to find a vamp to bite me though.. I will cheat it some way or another...

Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?

no

Does someone love you?

Yes

Do you know anyone named Dave? 

yea

Recently kissed anyone with the name starting with R?

no

Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member on the phone?

lol all the time..

Have you ever tried Gatorade? 

yeah

Do you think that Starbucks is expensive?

yeah

Are you named after a family member?

no and yes.. my middle name is my fathers name

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail?

lol I jsut had one the other day and yeah i passed it.. though when I get home on leave.. yeah.. hehe

Are you taller than 5' 6"?

yes 

Ever seen a dead body? 

yeah

Do you like the color blue?

all colors rule

How are you?

i'm fine

Who was the last person to send you a text message?

ummm my mom sent one to my yahoo msger phone number?

Last restaurant you went to?

non-fast food one.. a REAL resaurant.. John Hardies

What is the weather like today?

to fucking hot

Last voicemail you received?

dont know.. it was broken up.. sad to say I think it was dawn.. and I missed it :-(

What did you do yesterday?

Same thing I do everyday.. Try to Take over the World.

What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars? 

sleep with 3 women.. I learned that from offfice space lol...

What nationalities are you?

German, Irish, American Indian , norwegian, probably more lol. I be a mut.. mostly german though

How many hours did you sleep last night? 

7

Any upcoming concerts you want to attend? 

a lot.. but wont get to any of them :-(

Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?

my other personality Fred... evil fuck he be.. every time I look in a mirrior there he be...

Have you ever been on your school's track team?

no but yes for cross country and wrestling

What clothes are you wearing?

my Uniform...

If all your friends went on a road trip would you go too?

hell I would be the one planning it

How much money do you have, in cash?

I dont know.. a couple Euro

Do you swear at your parents? 

yes but they swear back lol

Is your phone right beside you?

no.. it dont work in this country...

Have you cried today?

nope

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?

God I hope so..

Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? 

no

What are the color of your bed sheets? 

Green

Have you ever crawled through a window?

Yeah...

Are you photogenic?

yeah.. I am a cam whore.. exhibitionist even lol..

What's your sign?

Virgo

Where do you spend most of your money? 

alcohol, movies

What was the last thing you did? 

Read this question

Do you have any tattoos?

i have two and several set up to get when I get home..

Do you still watch Saturday morning cartoons?

sometimes

Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?

yes...

Have you ever told someone you loved them but didn't mean it?

no

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?

yes

What are you doing in 2009?

moving to WI maybe..

What is your ringtone?

depends on who is calling 

What were you doing at 2 AM, saturday night?

sittring on the net wanting to be home getting drunk..

Are your parents divorced, married, or seperated?

married

What are you doing tonight?

working.. I am doing it right now..

What are you doing tomorrow?

working..

Who did you last message on MySpace?

Dawn I think

Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?

yes

What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?

I think my mom made me a pumkin or something...

What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?

It is playing on AFN right now.. sad to say I did not get to see it from the start.. it looks like it is a kick ass movie... I am I thinjk in the middle of it right now.. All of the patients are awake now.. and yeah.. just seems like it is a great movie...  I will have to see if I can download it..

That is it.. TtyLater

~Bob

Hancock

Dont mess with the Zohan

Kung Fu Panda

Beverly Hills Chihuahuahua(EDIT: I MUST SEE THIS MOVIE!! It has a great voice cast.. it is just a have to see funny as hell movie)

Vicky Cristina Barcelona

Lakeview Yerrace

Righteous Kill

Why are me so bad at sex and driving?  The fuckers pull out without thinking that someone else may be coming.

A new state law will require porn to be played at all gas pumps. So at $4.00 a gallon you are not the only one getting screwed.

I accidentally saw your criminal record today. You have been charged with EDS, Excessive Dick Sucking. I hear the charges are dropped. You swallowed the evidence.

The White House is looking for a trapper. They have a coon and a beaver trying to get in.

Smile it is the second best thing you can do with your lips. { I wonder what the 1st is? }

Man comes home and see his wife sitting in the middle of the room with the hairdryer pointed between her legs. He asks what she is doing. Her reply, heating up your supper!  - Don't even ask about left overs in that house. LOL

The irony of a Blow Job is even though you have the girl kneeling at your feet, she still has you by the balls.

The teacher asked the little boy why is cat was in school. Crying, the little boy says, I heard my Dad tell Mom " I'm going to eat that pussy tonight".

New Redneck pickup line. Honey are you sure your not a chicken farmer because you sure know how to raise some cock.

Cat falls into the pool and the roster laughs. Moral of the story: A wet pussy makes a cock happy.

A condom tells the tampon you take my job for a whole week. Tampon replies yeah but if you fuck up I lose my job for 9 months.

Man in a hotel bumps into a woman's boob. He tells her if your heart is as soft as your breast you'll forgive me. She replies if your cock is as hard as you elbow, I am in room 302. (I LOVE THIS ONE!!!)

Beer $10.00 Weed $20.00 Condom $2.75 finding out that your date swallows and has no gag reflex Priceless. Fuck Master card it pays to Discover.

Tehy are great... plus they have Zeta-Jones in them.. and you cant go wrong with her hehehe... that is it.. ttyl

~Bob

Sexond time writing this... stupid crappy net...

The way our eyes see light is fucking cool...

Today started out as a WAY to fucking hot and bright day like most summer days. Then it was said that it would be going bad for weather wise.. well it sort of started in a way because the light turned ORANGE! SO it looked like you had glasses with orange/tan lenses in them. YOu know kind of like those safty glasses ones... Anyways now that the sun is going down it has gone PURPLE.. no fucking joke.. the light outside has it all looking almsot purple like.. light is just so fucking cool... lol 

So the last two days my brain have been on over drive about what bike I am going to buy. I have started to really stress myself out even with all the thinking. Anyways that is all done now. I am stopping these thoughts for a good amount tell I get home. I went and talked to the Exchange guy here on base and found one bike that seemed ok and everythign but after searching around I noticed that well.. it was NOT that big of a deal. As in I could go back home and buy the same bike with out a deal put on to for cheaper and the HD Shop near my town has a Military Deal which put on top of it already being cheaper.. yeah.. pretty much said screw that one bike now. I will go back tomorrow and cancel out the $100 down. I feel bad because the guy I was talking to kicked ass. He is Irish. I have yet to meet an Irishman I did not think kicked Ass. O well that is the way life works in sales though. I feel much more relaxed about it all too.  Going home to make this purchase and having the bike right in front of me where I can sit on it and make sure it fits me.. well.. i just really like that a lot more then buying a bunch of words and pictures and just hoping that when I get the real thing I like it..

Well that is all I can think about at the moment so I will ttyaLater

~Bob

If you have facebook and are on it.. add me and talk.. I am SO BORED... ME name be Robert Hayenga... SO BORED!!!

EDIT: DONT mention Mindsay if I add you though. I dont want people in my non-internet life to know about this site.. or at least to know I have an account here... this is my blog to VENT about those people..

seven ages of man: infant, school-boy, lover, soldier, justice, pantaloon, and second childhood, "sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything".

The full passage is:

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms;
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion;
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything." — Jaques (Act II, Scene VII, lines 139-166)

Interpretation

The man in the poem goes through these stages:

• Infancy: In this stage he is dependent on others and needs to be constantly attended to.
• Childhood: It is in this stage that he begins to go to school. He is reluctant to leave the protected environment of his home as he is still not confident enough to exercise his own discretion.
• The lover: In this stage, comparable to modern day adolescence, he is always remorseful due to some reason or other, especially the loss of love. He tries to express feelings through song or some other cultural activity.
• The soldier: It is in this age, comparable to modern day young adult, that he thinks less of himself and begins to think more of others. He is very easily aroused and is hot headed. He is always working towards making a reputation for himself and gaining recognition, however shortlived it may be, even at the cost of his own life.
• The justice: In this stage, comparable to modern day adult, he has acquired wisdom through the many experiences he has had in life. He has reached a stage where he has gained prosperity and social status. He becomes very attentive of his looks and begins to enjoy the finer things of life.
• Old age: He begins to lose his charm — both physical and mental. He begins to become the brunt of others' jokes. He loses his firmness and assertiveness, and shrinks in stature and personality.
• Mental dementia and death: He loses his status and he becomes a non-entity. He becomes dependent on others like a child and is in need of constant support before finally dying.

Well I am thinking it is just becaue I am at work but we will just have to wait and see..

I tried to make this my default picture because well.. it is my Favorite picture of my life so far...

It is me and the woman I love more then anything else on this earth, Dawn. Her son is in a VERY close second on that list.

Anyways for some reason when I hit it to upload it just refreshes and is like Are you sure you uplaoded a picture? We are not sure? or something like that.... anyways it is pissing me off becaus ecome on.. that is a VERY cute pic...

Funny, I just remembered that this is the same pic that I used to compare me and Dawn to me and Tif. Most everyone said me and Tif looked better together then me and Dawn too. lol Not sure why that is funny but to me it is.

Well not much else to say really so ttyLater

~Bob 

Ok the title is more of me telling Me that I must do them.. since not everyone may want to do these couple things...

The first one is...

Wine War
Haro, Spain

Wear white and bring a water gun, then fill it with free wine, compliments of the city council, for this super-soaker spectacle. "Held annually at the end of June, it's a modern-day remnant of the feuds between rival towns of this wine-producing area in which everyone drenches everyone else in Rioja" wine, Dunford says. Later, steer that are released into the plaza take off for the bullring, adding a final touch of drama to the day.

(So come on Ladys put on those white Ts and lets all get drunk through every pore in our body. YAY!!!)

The second event I just found out about it...

Naadam
Ulaanbaatar, Mongolia

"This event (July 11-13) is less about participation, focused as it is on the national sports of archery, wrestling and horsemanship. It's an experience you won't forget, especially once you've squeezed into a nomad's tent, swilled Genghis Khan vodka with 300-pound wrestlers while a woman in silk robes serves you platters of sheep innards," Dunford says. Don't miss the song and dance shows at the Cultural Palace.

(I dont know about you but that really sounds like a fucking blast to me)

This one you all may now about...

La Tomatina
Buñol, Spain

On Aug. 29, truckloads of tomatoes are unloaded in the square, a rocket is fired and thousands of festive food-fighters reduce the fruit to a juicy explosion of seeds, skin and pulp. "It's all about joining in, and most people find that chucking around 130,000 kilos (286,000 pounds) of tomatoes at each other is a strangely liberating experience. It's the one party at which you can say that you've painted the town red," Dunford says.

Another Classic must..

Carnival
Port of Spain, Trinidad

Order your costume for Feb. 19 and 20 and join the steel bands and bikini-clad masqueraders marching in the streets. "There's nothing like this pre-Lenten orgy of feasting and dancing. Rio is still the daddy of them all but this year try somewhere different, like Trinidad, where this joyful, rum-soaked celebration is the biggest in the Caribbean. It's a national obsession," Dunford says

The last one.. for THIS list at least will be...

Queen's Day
Amsterdam, the Netherlands

Already known as a party paradise, this Dutch city has an all-nighter on the queen's birthday, April 30. "Lots of drink is consumed, and everyone goes berserk on the water — rowboats, barges and old fishing vessels crammed with people, crates of beer and sound systems pound their way around the canals. Get on a boat or just watch from the comfort of a nearby bridge — or bar," Dunford says

TtyaLater

~Bob

So I have not changed my page layout in YEARS.. as in a couple month after making this screen name I made the page as it is now.. like with int a month actualy.. never changed it.. I clicked on one of the pre-made ones they had back in the day and changed it up a VERY little bit and it has been left.. I am thinking about chagin it.. but at the same time.. I dont want to too...

O welll... just some random thinking...

Just got done with Cinderella Man... it is a good movie... i liked it a lot...

I think I may go work out after work tonight... well that is it..

TtyaLater

~Bob

Artist: Eddie Vedder
Song: You've Got to Hide Your Love Away

Here I stand head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If she's gone I can't go on
Feeling two foot small
Everywhere people stare
each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away

How can I even try?
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in
How could she say to me
"Love will find a way?"
Gather round all you clowns
Let me hear you say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away

The way I like the version in the Movie  "I am Sam"

I LOVE that movie too by the way...

Later

~Bob

ok so after reading a couple of her quote in josiejunk blog and reading some more on my own.. God DAMN she is a funny ass woman... I mean for her time she spoke out in a sexy classy way that not so many woman did.. now and days yes they do.. but for the fact taht the time she lived in and all.. that is just HOT lol..

If you have not read her stuff yet... google it up and start reading lol